Quotes & shit.

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Everywhere I go & everyone I meet. I somehow receive pain or get hurt. I don't understand why, but it is like I can't be happy for anything. I've tried. It is as if happiness for me doesn't exist. Everyone tries to hurt me & everywhere I go, I feel tremendous pain.

I feel like screaming sometimes while other times I feel like crying, but during both times I can't seem to do either. I laugh it off & try to look at the positive things in life, but at the end of the day, after I am in bed, alone, I know that I will never be happy & I will always be hurt & feel this pain, until I am completely gone.

I tell myself that no one would notice, but I know that isn't true. Allot of people would notice & they would cry & feel pain & act as if they actually cared about me, actually loved me. But the pain they will be feeling & the tears they will be crying will be caused by their wishing. Wishing they had loved me, wishing they had cared, wishing they would have been friendlier & maybe I would still be here. But it will be too late for them to act on these wishes, because I will be gone. And I will never be back.

I just wish they would've loved me when I was here. I wish they would have cared enough to stop the pain I was in. Maybe it would have helped & maybe I would still be here.