Him

Forever?

Anthony and I go into a tight embrace. My eyes close and I smell his faint, (but strong) musky cologne. We hug for what feels like forever. I hate to say it, but I feel an extreme safeness in his arms. I know I shouldn't feel guilty, but I know Dylan is staring. I unwillingly leave his warm embrace. I feel Anthony try to hold on longer. His eyes have this almost puppy dog look to them. We don't say another word as we start to walk the longer pathway to the entrance of the high school.

I look down the entire way and feel the possessive stare of Dylan. I'm too nervous to look up. A part of me wants to sit next to my baby, Dylan and hear him out; and forgive him. Another part of me wants to show Dylan that I've moved on to better. I can't take it...

"I'll see you around, Anthony. Thank you for the ride- it was very sweet of you..." My eyes trail off to Dylan looking down. I know he's listening even though his head is down. He has this tendency to listen to everybody's conversations, no matter who. He is wearing a grey t- shirt,black sweatpants and checkerboard VANS. His eyes are red and puffy...A sign that he's been crying.

"Oh. Really? Okay well sure thing about the ride, anytime." Anthony says quietly. He wraps his arms around me a second time and I almost regret wanting to talk to Dylan. Oh Anthony smells so god damn good. I feel his fingers rub the middle of my back and I fall deeper into his arms. He then whispers "see you later" into my ear and all my arm hairs stand straight up. How is it so easy for him to give me so many goosebumps. I was adoring every minute in his arms. Once he leaves I stand in shock for about 10 seconds because of the way he made me feel. I then make my way to the bench,where Dylan is at.

"Hey", I whisper. I sit down on the bench. He is looking down at the ground and I realize he just witnessed Anthony and I's sensual hug.

"Hi", Dylan says. he finally makes lifts his head to make eye contact with me. he is crying.

"Baby, I'm sorry... you know that. She kissed me, that's all that happened- I swear. I would never intentionally hurt you like that. I know I probably deserve what you did to that guy, but I just want to kick his ass so bad. I miss you, baby. Please forgive me. She came up to me said she's always liked me... and then kissed me! Like that!I don't even know her. I know I'm rambling baby, but I love you forever..." The word "forever" stayed in the air for a few moments after he said it.

I stare into his sad turquoise eyes, and I see how vulnerable he is. What do I do?

"Forever?", I faintly whisper.