Dark Days

It's On Again

©JRF2016

I walk back down the stairs with my arm around my newly discovered nephew. Becky was smiling at us. "Are you good now, Mase?" He shakes his head. She follows us out on the porch and sits in the swing as we sit on the steps. "What happened to your hand, Conner?" Mason asks.

"So it's still just Conner, huh? Like I'm just one of your kid buddies?"

"Uh huh, you gotta earn any kind of title." He laughs punching me in the arm. I fall over pretending like it really hurt. I sit back up and look at my hand, I have no clue what he's even talking about until I see the blood.

"Hmm, guess I must have bumped it when you slugged me, slugger." I laugh, "Sorry if I was kind of a doucebag earlier."

"What's a douchebag?"

"Conner Dillon," Becky jumps up screaming at me when he asked me that, "He's seven!" I hold my hands up laughing at her. "Sorry, Becks, sorry if I was me being a jerk, is what I meant to say. You know how to use this?" I ask pointing to the gun he has strapped to his hip. He rolls his eyes and stares at me like I had just asked the stupidest question on the planet, maybe I had. "I'm seven," he says, "I ain't no baby, yes I know how to use it." I laugh and shake my head.

"Okay, sorry. Guess that was a pretty stupid question, huh?" He snorts as he nods sarcastically.

Cearra walks up in her deputy uniform. She looks so damn hot in that damn thing. I was staring at her when Mason clears his throat snapping me out of my trance. I look at him and then back at Becky. Cearra stops about twenty feet from where we are and stares at me before turning and walking back the way she had come. I still didn't know if what happened this morning was real or not. I want to go over and talk to her to find out. Riley shows up with Grace and drags Mason out to explore a little before it gets dark. I was sitting alone on Becky's steps now when Cearra walks back up the road toward us. She stops about twenty feet away again and just stares. "You two need to talk or something?" I jump and look up at Becky now standing above me and staring at Cearra too. I shrug and look back out to that hot deputy again. "Don't let me keep ya. You don't have to feel obligated to entertain me. If your girl needs to talk, go." I stand up but turn back to Becky.

"Honestly, Becks. I don't know what she is. We had somethin' goin' a while back and I don't know if she wants to kick it off again or not."

"Well, it doesn't look like she's too happy that you're here with me right now. It looks like she wants to talk to you." Becky lays her hand on my shoulder, "Go, talk. It is what it is, and you won't be able to find out if it is anything if you don't go to her. I don't want to be the reason that gets screwed up for you, especially when there is nothing going on here to screw it up for you." I smile and step away. I really liked Becky but I had to find out what was going on with Cearra. I had to see if we were rekindling that old flame and if we were that is where I really wanted to be. I hold out my arms as I near her, "Can we go somewhere and talk?"

"I don't think I want to talk to you," she growls at me.

{Cearra's POV} I walk over to Becky's and sure enough Conner is there. Sitting on the porch with the kid like nothing had happened just a few hours ago. I hated this racist asshole but at the same time something was pulling me to him. Maybe it was the fact that Reid and Rachel were building a nice little family and I missed that but I was extremely jealous of this new woman right now. I walk up and see Conner and the kid laughing with each other and I stop walking toward him and I just stand in the middle of the street. I stare at him for a minute before I decide to just walk away. It wasn't worth it; it could never work with me and him. It is guys like him that made me become lesbian in the first place. He is the first man I had ever even considered being with since I was in my twenties. He is the only man I've been with since Maddie. I walk back down the street and run into Reid. "Hey Cearra," he says stopping as I come up beside him, "You look stressed, what's up?" I look him in his pale blue eyes and just shrug. "It's Conner right?" He asks grabbing my arm and stopping me from walking away, "The fact that he is enamored with his brother's ex? Just because he is being friendly and welcoming doesn't mean that they are getting together. Go talk to him and find out what's going on, before they do get together." He pauses with a big sigh and stares at the ground for a minute before bringing his head back up and looking into my eyes. "Take it from a guy that has screwed things up royally, many times, and very recently. Go talk to him. Don't let silence ruin something great." He laughs before walking off. I watch him as he meets Rachel and the twins in a big hug and I smile before turning back to go talk to Conner.