Shattered: A James Maslow Mini Series

Part (1)

Seven years, that's how long I had put into this relationship. Seems like waste of time now that I think about it how long did he think those brown puppy dog eyes could fool me? I love him but is it truly worth it? I know and he knows that I know. No one said falling in love was easy, and I don't want to throw everything I thought was real away. I know the guy I met at that charity event in 09' is still there somewhere deep down. That's one thing keeping me from leaving James. I know that kind, down to earth guy is still there somewhere and that this fame has just gone to his head but how much longer can I hang on to that image. I know people grow up and change but that person's true self still lies underneath the exterior. He doesn't even know how much I love him and this secret he's hiding could honestly destroy the marriage we worked so hard to build. When did we get so lost?  When did life become to real that this had to become our reality. I keep thinking if he hadn't of gotten so angry or so distant none of this would of happened. I blame myself I should of continued as his talent agent, but my dreams of becoming a mother were becoming slim, and If I hadn't we'd never have the opportunity to be Raelyn's mother she's such a bright beautiful girl just like her father that's why we had to make things right we had to do something to fix this marriage that only took one night of temptation to fall apart.