Shattered: A James Maslow Mini Series

Part (7)

Once this fight had broken out between the two of us its all I could do not to back down. This had to be the worst fight our seven year marriage had ever let happen. With arms up in the air, emotions running high and the lies that I kept trying not to hear. The sound of Raelyn crying in the arms of James, and my wedding ring being thrown on the floor beneath me. It was all on repeat in my mind as I laid Indian style on the floor of our living room. James packed a bag for him and Raelyn and left me in pain and as an emotional wreck. I didn't know what to do with myself I was in this big house all alone and heartbroken. Without even my baby girl to comfort me I could still hear the doors slamming behind him as he left just hours ago. This is not what I wanted I kept thinking to myself how could this of happened? I kept asking myself, and with Claudia? Six months is how long I found out from his own mouth that he had been cheating on me during the day and night when he had been with me he had been with her too and then having the nerve to lay in bed with me every night as if it was ok. That woman was the reason my husband was turning into somebody I didn't like a monster even, especially to pretend he could get away with it. How long did he think he could carry on the charade it didn't take me long to figure it out, the connection we had as a couple was definitely shaken in this situation. I never want to picture a life without him in it. It seemed unthinkable because I loved him so much I was angry but not just angry at him for deceiving me, but for breaking everything we worked so hard in this marriage to build, breaking vows and the life we built the love we'd given each other what happened? I kept wondering to myself, but my heart ached even more for Raelyn I didn't want her to remember an even like this, or see her mother or father fighting like that in front of her. To her James hung the moon she was a daddy's girl already at the small age of eight months old. Why did he take my baby I kept crying out clenching my shirt to my chest as I cried towards the heavens. Please help me make this right I kept crying outloud.