A Single Year in the Life of a Teenager (Editing)

Week 24 (Unedited)

11/06/16 Hey people! I slept in today, or mostly. I was  still tired before the show. Today was the last day. There were lots of  moments I thought about it, and it made me sad, but it wasn't until the  second act that it hit me. I felt empty. After today, out club wouldn't  be exactly like that. That was the last time each of us individuals  would be on that stage performing that show, at that time. That will  never happen again. Yeah, I felt sad, but I was happy that I was a part  of it. After  the show I went to Portillo's with my mom. It was nice, and I got to  have some sort of fun instead of going home to do homework. My  mom told me I could decide not to go to school tomorrow, but that I  would have to decide for sure in the morning. I don't plan on going to  school, since I am physically and mentally exhausted. Plus I didn't have  time to memorize three stanzas of the Raven, which is due tomorrow. So  school is not a place I'm going. I should get some rest since I haven't slept well the last few days because of the play. Goodnight people!11/07/16Hey  people! I didn't go to school today because I was so tired from the  play. After a bit of rest this morning, I felt better. I didn't the  homework that was due today, and convinced my mom to let me go to  Taekwondo since I am going to miss it tomorrow because of cleaning up  the dressing rooms for drama. Taekwondo was fun, and we got  to wear Cubs gear since the Cubs won the World Series.  It was different  since I don't usually go on Monday's. It was still fun though. I'm  still kinda tired and want to be ready for tomorrow since it's Election  Day and there's school. Goodnight people!11/08/16Hey  people! Today is Election Day, but I don't like politics so I've been  trying not to think about it. School was okay, but a bit overwhelming  since I missed yesterday. Cleaning up the dressing rooms was pretty fun,  especially since it looks a lot better now than it did before. The  seniors really care about it, which is nice to see. I was also glad to  see so many people there to clean up, because it made it easier. I  did my homework after I got home, and tried to ignore anything related  to the Election. I'm kind of scared since the last thing I saw was that  Trump was winning. I really hope he doesn't. If he wins, it's going to  be really bad for anyone who isn't white and male. I want to live my  life without that kind of hate being president. On that note, I'm going to bed and I'll find out in the morning. Goodnight people!11/09/16I  can't believe this. He won. Trump won. He's going to be president. This  isn't good. I felt scared when I left my house this morning. By his  becoming president, it means that any types of sexual assault are okay  and that people can do that and get away with it. That scares me, since  I'm a teenage girl. Fear won when Trump won, and now I'm living in fear,  wondering if every white man I see will attack me. I know that that's  irrational, but so is lots of what Trump has said. I shouldn't be scared  walking to and from school. No one should be. And in a way I'm lucky  that I'm white, because the only minority I have is being a woman. But I  feel so scared for others also. Hate won. I don't know what will happen  to love because obviously it doesn't matter to anyone. Only fear and  hate of people who are different. My  day is okay otherwise, except all my friends are tense about what's  going to happen when Trump is inaugurated. School has been okay so far  today. I'll talk to you people a little later! --------------------------Hey  people! I got home a while ago, and I still feel nervous. I don't feel  as bad though. It won't start getting worse until Trump is actually  inaugurated... which is in a few months. I did my homework,  and now I'm just watching tv until it's time to go to bed. I might talk  to Mara and Samm and all of them, but I don't know about what yet. I  don't think anything interesting will happen in the next few hours, so  I'm going to say night a bit early. Goodnight people!11/10/16Hey  people! School was good today, especially APES because we listened to  Hamilton during our lab and I was rocking out and it was great. We got  the lab done with time to spare so it wasn't like it stopped me from  working. I was however singing all of the words to every song, and lots  of people were impressed by that. My mom has been entering in contests  to get Hamilton tickets, and while it's unlikely I hope that we actually  get them. That would be amazing and wonderful and yay. I  had poetry club after school today which was pretty fun. We talked  about the election and our disappointment with it, but also about the  hope we had since we knew that not all people are like Donald Trump, and  since Hillary won the popular vote. Now I'll stop talking about  politics until about January. We also talked about what we're doing for  our group piece for competition. We ended up agreeing with the idea of a  morning routine and reflecting on why we needed to do that routine. I  think it's pretty cool, because we would reflect on how society impact  our daily lives and what we put ourselves through to either fit or break  the mold. I  decided not to go to Taekwondo since I was feeling pretty sick and  tired. I also started feeling pretty sad. Mostly about my future in  romantic relationships. It seems pretty petty to me to feel so concerned  about it, but I am because I've seen all of my friends have something  (Ashley is in a relationship currently, Splash has gotten hit on, Samm  has had multiple relationships in the past), and I've had nothing. No  guys have said anything to make me feel like they were, and when I  thought they were they were just being nice. I guess it's really hard to  believe that someone likes me when I have no proof. I know I'm just  complaining and that what I think isn't true but it's hard to believe  that. That's what has been on my mind today, and that's how I  feel going to bed. I know I'll be fine, but I wish I was fine now.  Goodnight people!11/11/16Hey  people! I went to the zoo today. It was really fun. I went with my mom,  and since it's Veterans Day we got in for free. We went to a lot of  different exhibits, but my favorite (and it always is) was the dolphins.  Dolphins are my favorite animal. They're the reason I first wanted to  be a marine biologist. We went to the dolphin show. It was wonderful and  I always love it because dolphins are just so amazing to me. They're  intelligent and they love to play. I  also had an extra thing going on while I was at the zoo. We have an  assignment in English to not use communication technology (aka  cellphones and tvs etc.) for five hours. So, I just didn't check my  phone while we were at the zoo. I found it very nice to not worry about  taking pictures of the animals, or text my friends, or check Facebook. I  got to enjoy the zoo without worrying about the rest of the world, and  instead getting to enjoy what was right in front of me, which was the  point of the project. I really enjoyed it. I probably wouldn't have  checked my phone much even without the project, but still. I  still have a few hours to relax, so I'll talk more to you people when  I'm getting ready to go to bed. Talk to you people later!--------------------------------Well, nothing happened. But I will say one more thing. Thank  you for everyone who has served in the military. And I'm not just  saying that. You have protected and saved so many lives, including mine.  While I don't think we need a huge military, I do still thank those who  have been in it. You have done your service, and we as a country should  treat you better, including thanking you more than once a year. Thank  you for what you have done for me, and for this country. You fought the  wars and saw the terrors so that innocent people didn't have to. I  humbly and sincerely thank you. I'm off to bed now, so goodnight people!11/12/16Hey  people! I spent most of today at Taekwondo. I started off roughly, as  in after about ten minutes of exercising with the first class (as in  leading warmups) I felt like I was going to throw up. I also started  losing my vision. I think that this morning was the closest I ever got  to fainting. I didn't though. I was very happy that I didn't. It also  showed me that I was out of shape. For the rest of the day I didn't push  myself too much. After black belt I stuck around because we had CPR  training at three. I  forgot how long CPR training took. It was three hours long, but it  wasn't very hard to understand. Especially because I was certified  before. I wanted to do some of my homework, but I'm beat after all the  work I did today. I might do some homework, but I'm not sure if I'll be  focused enough to do it well. Either way I'll figure it out and get it  all done. Speaking  of school, I got a tutoring job today. It's for a kid from Taekwondo,  and it's for math. I know her and she's not failing her math class, so I  don't think it'll be too bad for me or her. We're twice a week for 45  minutes, for $15 per session. That's about three dollars higher than  what I wanted to ask for, but my mom told me to ask for that because it  would mean I would get paid more, and that I could bargain down to what I  wanted instead of bargaining lower than what I wanted. I'm glad I did,  and with that money I'm going to be able to actually get gifts for my  friends and family. I want to say thank you to my parents for being so  amazing and always trying to get the best for me. I love them so much. I  think that's enough gratefulness, I'll leave the rest for Thanksgiving.  Speaking of Thanksgiving, I have the whole week off. Well, technically  the first two days are parent teacher conferences, but my parents don't  go to those. So I have the whole week off, but that means a bunch of  stuff is due right before break. Which is making me stressed. But I mean  after that I'll have less to do for the actual break. I have that to  look forward to. But for now I look forward to sleep. Goodnight people!