dear jiyun » jhs

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dear jiyun,

the sun is shining today
bright and sultry
burning my pupils

so I'm sorry if I make mistakes
while writing.

everything is beautiful,

the sky clean and
bees are flying around

warm summer breeze covering
my arms,

birds tweeting
from up the tall trees.

it's like god is laughing at me

when everything around
is happy,

and nature blossoms
giving birth to little miracles,

I'm sitting behind
my bedroom
window
watching the theogony
and the beauty blooming
in my own garden.

I closed my eyes
trying to picture how
it'd be like if you were
here
with me

and your figure chasing
butterflies
and
blowing dandelions
sneaked into my head

making me shake it immensely

to throw the sadness away.

I wish you were here
I caught myself
whispering

under my breath I made a wish
for you to see this,

so one of us can be
truly pleased,

to enjoy the view

and fulfill your inner spirit
with peace and serenity.

you loved nature

and how amazing this world
can be

you liked to pick flowers
and make crowns
out of them

you'd make me wear them
and comment
on how they suit me

flower boy

you'd call me and laugh

and I'd make silly faces
to hear you again

how precious it was,
it is,
for me

music to my ears

like the birds singing
outside my window

reminding once again

there's no laughing
along with their
happy song

neither mood for
silly faces.

cause the flowers are deceased

and the crowns
parched
and
shrank

life sucked out of them

the moment
you took their vividness
away
with you

when you walked out the door.

I rose to close the window

and dragged the curtains
all the way

no light allowed to
come inside

cause except from sunshine

it brings with it
memories

of you

and I feel it creeping in,
the sudden pain
forcefully taking over

threatening to break me down.

all around me makes me
ask myself;

why are you everywhere

in everything I do?

I will see you again,

hoseok