bucket list ✗ lashton ✔️

final author note

since i started wattpad my goal was for my account to be a place free of sadness. I wanted to avoid it at all costs and wanted it to be a positive where the people who followed me or read my stories wouldn't feel sad whenever they saw the author notes (which is why they are so lame). i want you to laugh and be happy, but to be honest i kind of broke that promise the moment i posted the 'before you read' so i can assure you that this is the first and last time a sad story will be here (sure, we get the dramatic moments in the fanfics but whatever). i don't want to do it again even if you think i should but i'm sorry, this was it from me with sad stories

at first i wrote this because i needed to let it out. i had been sad for weeks and broke down in front of my mom because i've witnessed things related to this and it hurts like a bitch, i'm still not over it and probably will never be. i'm sad a lot of times (more than i would like to) and don't tell anyone because i think i'm able to get through it alone when i'm fragile like glass, but i'm still subborn. mom said i should talk about it with someone but i noticed that no one cared and i hadn't gone to the psychologist in two months so i wrote the story, which made me able to let some things out

i don't want you to think about sad endings, i do not believe in sad endings. i tried to write the end less sad that it was originaly planned because it's against myself to write a deeply sad ending. in the end, no matter how things get, there is always a happy place even when it's death. I want you to live your life at all costs so in the end you can say that you lived and when the moment comes you know that you enjoyed all of it. don't close the bedroom door and stay inside of it everyday, go out with friends (or by yourself) and do something. don't be like me and stay inside just because you're insecure or ashamed

i kind of gave the darker and sadder version of myself in this story and i don't know if it was good or bad but i hope it was worth it and it helps me move on

i don't want you to be sad even if you can't avoid it. if you ever feel like that i don't mind if you come and talk to me about it and i'm serious about this, you can always talk to me because i consider all of you my friends (i'm lonely, i know). it doesn't matter the time, if i'm sleeping then i surely will reply when i wake up. I don't want you to think that you are bothering me because what i think is that there are billions of people in this world and i am the lucky one who gets to talk to you in that moment

i hope you enjoyed this story, i love you so much xx

-ana rita (moony)