July. »Jeon Jungkook«

P.25

When you left me, I thought it was because you hated me.

I thought it was because you were sick and tired of my childish ways.

I thought it was because you didn't love me anymore.

I blamed you so much for leaving me.

I blamed you for the way you made me feel and for the state you left me in.

But I was such a fool for doubting you.

I was such a idiot for thinking that you would leave me.

I was such a sick brat. So blind, so mindless, and so many more bad things, but I always seem to lack on expressive words.

I never had anyone to express to anyways.

I should have known you were doing it for my good.

I should have known you would even give up your life to save mine.

But please don't do that.

You know I can't live without you.

You know I'd be gone not long after your death.

You know you're all I have.

Why would you do something so violent to yourself and me.

I may still have breath in my lungs, but it's a lose-lose.

You fool.

I will not survive a day knowing you're not here anymore.