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I spent my afternoon at Ethan's. I don't want to tell you want happened because I'm ashamed. We fucked. Actually he fucked me, because it happens all the time, when I'm with him, I do anything that he wants, I can't help it.

We were just laying on the couch watching a movie when he turned to me and said that he had missed me. Honestly, I thought "bullshit" but as always, I said that I missed him too. Seconds later we were making out right there, until he had a great ideia, go to the bedroom. I would died in that moment if I could, I stopped for a second (it seemed like hours) thinking about going or not. I went with him upstairs and when I realized I was almost naked in his lap, with his hands on my back kissing me vionlently. You know what happened next.

After it, he went to the kitchen to cook something and I just laid there having suicide thoughts and thinking that it couldn't be worse.

I WAS WRONG. I started to listen footsteps and, guess what, it was Grayson! Can you feel my pain? I was wearing just my underwear with Ethan's sheets above me. I couldn't tell if Grayson was angry or sad, he just stopped there, staring at me.

- Alex? Please, tell me that this is not what it seems.

- I'm sorry Gray, but it is.

- Don't say you're sorry, I know you aren't. I thought you couldn't disappoint me anymore, I was so fucking wrong Alex, how could you? Ethan has a girlfriend and she's your friend.

- I didn't planned this, seriously, I just went here to hang out with him and see a movie because he asked me and it happened, honestly I don't know for sure why.

- You knew how he can influence you and make you do all the things he want, and you knew you couldn't resist him if he tried something, but still, you came.

- Yes Grayson, I came. But why the fuck do you care? You told me to go fuck myself, you don't like me anymore, why the hell do you care? Why the hell are you so angry? I'm fucked up, you can't make me feel worst than how I already feel. Go away please.