ITS 4 AM WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME
anyways this rant is abt something which has changed my life more than u think and thats makeup
i loved makeup and i have been wearing it since i was like 8-9 because i used to be a child model and for shoots i couldnt be bare faced that shit WAS NOT lit and idk why i just found it so fascinating and the feeling of getting ur makeup done is so nice and satisfyinG but anyways so 8 year old be thought that the blush and lip gloss (literally thats it) was the best shit ever and it made me look 75489x prettier and i actually rlly loved my face like it was popping it was lit i was wondering why i wasnt the prettiest girl in the grade and why my crush at the time hadnt asked me out yet I AM NOT EVEN LYING I AM SUCH A BITCH but anyways
so i basically grew up surrounded by makeup. id watch my mom get dolled up for events and it was so lit i was obsessed with it. and when i did have shoots i had to put on makeup but apart from that i never really wore it. so people didnt start giving me shit for wearing makeup till about last year. i started wearing makeup during out of shoot times like to school to the mall and by makeup i deadass mean like shitty bb cream powder and mascara but my grade thought that THIS was the worst thing ever right so everyone started shit talking me like wow ok so i stopped wearing makeup to school bc like a) im lazy and b) i mean at the time my skin was pretty clear so i basically looked the same without bb cream i just liked the process of putting it on but i could always do that after school anyways
but guess what
EVEN AFTER I STOPPED WEARING MAKEUP TO SCHOOL PPL STILL TALKED BAD ABOUT ME WEARING MAKEUP AT THIS POINT MY FACE WAS EMPTY LIKE DEADASS NOT A DROP OF MAKEUP AND PEOPLE STILL THOUGHT THAT I WORE MAKEUP LIKE WHAT DO U WANT ME TO dO
at the end of that year i moved schools but then i moved back halfway after term one thats a whole other story but whilst i was gone from my old school i started experimenting with makeup outside of school, i learned how to wing my liner, got some brushes, had an actual mini makeup collection. i only wore this makeup to the mall or at home when no one would see me for personal amusment and i mean afterwards i felt bomb so i took selfies and posted it on my twitter and people from school found them and all my friends talked really bad about me bc of that but they apologized and most of them im pretty sure are accepting of the fact that enjoy makeup but anyways i moved back to my old school, found out they were talking shit and i refused to wear a single drop of makeup within 5 feet of my school literally i was SO tired of ppl talking bad i didnt wear anything
AND UP TO THIS DAY PEOPLE AT MY SCHOOL STILL TALK BAD ABOUT ME FOR WEARING MAKEUP TO SCHOOL BC THEY THING THAT I CAKE MY FACE DUE TO THE FACT THAT I WORE BB CREAM TO SCHOOL A YEAR AGO LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN
i honestly hAte it when ppl shame others for wearing makeup like its not ur fucking face maybe u should focus on that instead of wasting your time shitting on what other people like to do with their appearance ur priority should be ur own
like what has eyeshadow ever done to u to make u hate it that much?? honestly i fucking love makeup, i dont wear it that often but when i do i feel AMAZING about myself and its like the times i wear makeup i have to keep it a secret like i cant change my pro pic to a selfie of me w makeup even though i love it bc i know for a fact ppl from school will attack me or when i do i have to explain that it was for a special event beforehand like some kind of disclaimer just so people wont call me a hoe for wearing lipstick
IF IT MAKES U HAPPY FUCKING DO IT IM ALL FOR THAT SHIT IF U DONT LIKE MAKEUP DONT WEAR MAKEUP IF U LOVE MAKEUP WEAR IT BUT DONT SHIT ON SOMEONE FOR NOT HAVING THE SAME INTERESTS AS U
