I Will Fix You (Ziall)

Chapter 5

Niall closed the door but he didn't left. He rested his back on the door and slowly slided until his sitting, hugging his legs in front of him. His mind is clouded with thoughts. He can't think straight. They're in a big mess right now and he don't know how to react. He can't believe that those things really did happen.

He sitted there for almost five minutes until he remembered that Harry is in his room waiting for him. He stood up and made his way to his room. He opened the door and saw Harry laying, his arms on his eyes. When he heared the door opened, he took away his arms, opened his eyes then looked staright at Niall's eyes.

Tears forming in his eyes.

Harry's POV 

Niall hugs me tightly when he notice that I'm starting to tear up.

"I don't know what to do Ni. I can't stop myself. He's just so beautiful that my body took over me and then... I kissed him!" I'm sobing uncontrollably in his shoulders.

"It's alright Haz. I understand you. And he will understand you too, soon."

"But Eleanour saw us! And, and she slapped him! That's why he's so angry at me. Eleanour is a very lovely girl I shouldn't have done that to her. She was crying when she left Niall, and so is Lou. They're both hurt and it's all my fault! Louis is so angry that I doubt he will understand and forgive me Ni."

He just continued to hug me, rubbing my back. 

I'm such a mess. Why did I even kiss him? Why? I'm so disgusting. A faggot. Yes, I guess Louis is right, I'm just a fag. I can't blame him for calling me that. He have the every right to do so. I hurt him and Eleanour. I ruined their relationship. I don't even know where did I get the courage to get angry at him earlier. I deserve it, I know.

"I-I ruined them. I ruined our relationship. I ruined him. I ruined the person I- I love... I'm a monster Ni. I'm a monster!"

"Shh, it's alright Haz. You didn't ruin anything, alright? You're just inlove. If there's anyone who ruined something, it would be Louis. Just because of a kiss, he called you a... a... Argh! I hate him. Please, Haz. It's not your fault." Niall said, hugging me more tight. Like he's telling me that I'm safe and it's all gonna be alright.

I want to believe him but.. I just can't.

"I'm a very disgusting person."

And with that, Niall suddenly pull me away. He position me to sit straight so that he can look in my face properly. His hands in my shoulders holding rather too tightly that it's making me wince a little.

"Don't you ever say that you're disgusting! Don't!" He said a little too harsh and loud that I flinch. He realised what he had done and his eyes softened.

"I mean, Haz, please. Stop saying that you're any of those, okay? You're a very wonderful person. You're not disgusting. I'm so proud of you actually. For being brave and all. So what you're a gay? Louis' opinion doesn't matter. Though it matter to you because you like him but, c'mon! Would you just let him get you that easily?"

"I'm just being honest with myself, Niall." I said then turned away from him.

"Oh, so you want honesty? Huh? You want me to be honest with you? Fine. Here, look at me. Look at me, Harry." He hold my chin so I would face him. I look him in his eyes, readying myself for any harsh word that he might say, for the painful truth.

"Louis hates you right now. AND YES, he does have the right to be ANGRY at you. You just suddenly kissed him in front of his girlfriend BUT, you didn't know she was there. NOW, I'm not saying that what you've done is okay if she hadn't seen it, no. But the point there is you DIDN'T know she was there! You love him so you wanted to kiss him! You just wanted to show him the love you have for him! And it's not a sin Harry! It's not a sin to show him you love him! It's not even like just because you kissed him, you will automatically be engaged in a relationship! He know perfectly well that you are very much aware that he do have a girlfriend! Besides, you already said sorry to him but he didn't accept it so hit you, many times!"