Love Me Or Leave Me

12

A/n
Not edited. I started reading filipino romance novels for tagalog reference. You may have noticed that I'm trying to use mostly Filipino words from the previous chapters but I failed to do it here. Hence, the short chapter.

Bea's POV

And I'm on my way to believing.

Natapos ang kanta.

Ang bilis ng mga araw. Bukas ay balik school na naman kami. Nung nasa Batangas kami ni Maddie, I didn't want it to end. I just wanted time to stop. Especially, after what happened last night, ginusto ko na dun na lang kami ni Maddie for the rest of our lives.

Wow. Did I just really think that?

I've never thought of having a relationship with someone until that chinky eyed Davaoeña strolled into my life. She's like a breath of fresh air, something I never thought I needed. A wake up to life and to what I was doing.

I turned off the car engine and unbuckled Maddie's seatbelt.

"Bei." She whispered.

"Hmm?" Sagot ko lang. Nagtama ang mga mata namin.

"I love you." She whispered.

Her words echoed inside my head. I sat there with wide eyes.

She loves me.

I have never been in love before. Although, thinking about it, I feel different with Maddie.

The time we actually touched each other and I pleased her, I wasn't just doing it for her pleasure. I was doing it to let her feel something new, something that no one could ever make her feel again. Comparing Mads to the other girls I have slept with, nothing tops last night. I was different, I wasn't rushing. I was checking to make sure she was okay. Not once have I ever checked to see how a girl is feeling. It usually just comes and goes.

Maddie came, she laid with me afterwards and she fell asleep in my arms. The way everything happened last night was totally different. I didn't just have sex with Maddie. I actually made love to her.

"I should just uhmm... I'm just gonna go." She said, opening the car door.

It was then that I realized I had been so caught up on my thoughts, I didn't reply.

Honestly, I was too shocked to even move or say anything but I knew I loved this chinky eyed beauty since the very start. I just didn't wanna admit it. I tried to conceal it and fight it but I can't. I gave in.

"N-no." I say loudly while grabbing her wrist.

"Why? I'm sorry I said it so soon. I know you don't feel the same way." She said trying to wiggle my grip.

"No, don't go." I'm trying my best to persuade her.

"Why not?" Her russet brown eyes drilled holes into mine giving them her full attention.

"I..." the words won't come out of my mouth. I sat there not being able to say the three words she had said to me. My mouth kept opening to speak but no words would flow out. Her sparkling brown eyes were soon replaced with icy cold emotionless ones. Tears threatened to spill over as they rimmed the bottom of her eyes. Watching her killed me, knowing I was causing this, I actually couldn't bring my body to move. All I wanted to do was cup her face in between both of my hands, wipe her tears away with my thumbs and kiss her. Let that kiss be the one tho express all the words I couldn't say at this point in time.

She blinked once and tears were like little waterfalls trickling down her perfect porcelain skin.

"I'm sorry." She said while yanking her hand away, opening the car door and slamming it shut.

My phone rang.

A/n

There are some situations/feelings that I didn't know how to say in filipino, like the line, 'she's like a breath of fresh air'.

Like, how the fuck am I gonna translate that?

But I'm trying to write in Filipino as much as I can, that's why this came out 'baduy' because it's taglish.

You guys get me right?

Anyways. Thank you for reading this crap. Your comments are very much appreciated.