Captivating (Sequel To Captivated)

Chapter 1

{Niall's POV}

 I've been home for a few days now and I still cant remember a damn thing. I'm not sure I really want to be around Harry though honestly. I just want to be alone and pray that whatever I forgot comes back. But I cant tell him that....It would crush him and I know it would.

Even though I dont remember Harry ever loving anyone but his damn self I am starting to believe that he does love me. Now the real question is do I love him back.

No

Yes

Maybe

I dont think I do. It doesnt seem like I would ever do something like that. The only person I can remeber ever loving and truely loving me back is Ian.

Wait Ian?!?

I grabbed my phone my mother had given me and looked through the contacts in hopes that Ian's number was in there. I need to see a normal face...someone that I remember. I finally found the number and pressed call.

"Hello?"

"Ian?" I said into the phone

"Yeah...Niall are you ok? Do you need something" he asked

"No...well I dont know. Can we meet up please" I begged into the phone

"Yeah. Dont leave your house I heard about....everything I know you dont want to be in any cars right now"

It was true. Ever since the crash I was terrified of cars. I have a panic attack everytime I'm in one. I hate it.

"Thank you" I said hanging up the phone. I put my phone down and headed down the steps seeing my mum in the kitchen talking to someone. I walked into the kitchen seeing that she was talking to Harry.

"When did you get here?" I asked

"I called him" mum answered

"Oh alright...well I called Ian over. Is that ok?" I asked her

"Yeah that's fine with me" she nodded

"Uh Harry?" I said noticing his fist clench

"Yeah Ni"

"Are you ok"

"Yeah I'm perfectly fine, but I should go" he said standing up from his seat. Did I do something wrong? Am I missing something?

"Wait" I said walking after him as he walked out of the kitchen. He didnt turn around forcing me to stop him myself. I grabbed his wrist making him turn around.

"What Niall"

"Do you have issues with Ian or something that I dont remember?" I asked raising an eyebrow

"Yeah you could say that" he shrugged

"Well what do you expect me to do about that?"

"Nothing Niall. If you want to meet up with him go ahead. I dont want to fight about it. I hate fighting with you" he sighed

"Did we fight a lot?"

"Not all the time but when we did it got pretty bad. I'm pretty sure all of them were my fault"

"Oh"

"Yeah but like I said I should go. Have fun ok" he smiled

"I will...and um I'll call you later?" I asked awkwardly

"Call me when you need me" he said kissing me on the forehead and walking towards the door and leaving.

I really wish I could remember Harry ever being like this with me. I cant for the life of me though. It's just so fucking frustrating and I see how hard he's trying to get me to remember it all. I dont want him to get hurt and based on what I do remember that's not something I should even care about. Well it is and I dont care.