Brother // l.h.

•Nineteen •

The boys looked at us quite confused, as we walked into the hotel room again. "You are back already?" Ashton asked us, looking at the watch he wa wearing around his wrist. "The girls wanted to go to sleep early." Harry lied for me and I felt really bad, that I made him do that. This was strictly against his manners. "Is it alright if I stay? Or do you want me to go?" I asked, still standing in the doorframe. "Why would we send you away?" Calum wondered. "I don't know, some people obviously don't need reasons to freak out." I muttered under my breath, while I lay down next to Michael on his bed. The boys just shrugged it off and soon we were all watching Liam playing fifa against Luke. Liam won with 6:2. "You cheater." Luke yelled playfully. We all laughed at his fake outburst and were soon sunk into conversations about our futures.

"I just feel awkward for never having graduated. I mean, what if all of this here had never worked out, I would have nothing." Calum stated and Luke agreed with him. "In that case I'm really jealous of you Em, you can just go to college and study, get a good job..I have to go to highschool again." Luke told me honestly. That was something he had never said out loud until now. "I'd rather have dropped out as well Luke." The words leaving my mouth, without me thinking about them actually. I could feel all of their eyes staring at me, while I continued to stare at the ceiling. "I'm glad mum didn't let you." My brother stated, sounding as if he was angry with me.

"Please don't be  mad at me for nothing, aswell. I'm finishing school in two weeks." Sighing I sat up and looked at the blonde haired boy in front of me. His eyes still only focussing on me. "Aswell?" He asked. "Nothing. Just leave it." I said and he nodded confused.
"I'll go and get some sleep, see you tomorrow boys." I stated emotionless and left the room without my eyes leaving the floor. Slamming Michaels hotel room door behind me, I slowly made my way down the hallway to my room. I was only one fourth gone the way, when i heard two doors open again. One in front of me, the other one behind me.

Chelsea came out of the room in front of me. She grimassed when she saw me. "Ew, can't you just go and be a bitch somewhere else?" She yelled. "Excuse me?" I fought back. "Get your ugly liar face out of this country." She stated clearly and loud, so probably everyone could hear. "What is your problem? You've said you were okay with everything?" I asked her softly. "I should've destroyed you when you were still on stage." She said and walked back into her hotel room. Leaving me once more speechless, I just remained in the spot, were I was standing.

Another door shut behind me. Footsteps came closer to me and when they stopped right behind me, I dared to turn around. Luke was standing behind me, his mouth was sill open, showing me he had heard what Chelsea just said.
My face went crimson read in an instant. I was so embarassed, I didn't want him to know about the girls acting like that.
Turning around, I just walked down the hallway and into my hotelroom. I left Luke standing there all by himself. When I closed the door, I leaned against it with my back.

After a few minutes I was still sitting in the same spot, a soft knock appeared from the other side of the door. "Em?" I heard Luke ask very silent. "I know you're behind the door. Please open up." He whispered and I could hear him putting his forehead against the cold wood.
My fingers grabbed the doorknob. Pulling my small frame up, my fingers remained on the doorknob. Grabbing it fully, I turned it and opened the door a bit. "What do you want?" I asked Luke shyly, not daring to look at my brother. I was so embarassed that he saw the scene with Chelsea. "Can I talk to you, please?" His voice sounding a little bit shaky.

My eyes got watery and I weigh the arguments of letting him in or not. "Em, I know you don't want to talk about it, I just..want to make sure you're okay." he breathed out sadly. He was just trying so hard to help me and I know he was giving me the support he promised me for tonight. Sometimes I wondered how he is even capable to handle all of my bullshit. Without another hesitation my hands pulled the door open further, so he could walk in, which he gladly accepted. His tall frame walked past me, brushing my shoulder lightly in the process. Luke sat down on one of the two double beds and waited for me to close the door.