terrified
I was completely terrified...I wanted my Child i never thought anyone would stoop this low as to take ma kid....
"Rockee!" I yelled as me and drew walked down the street. I stopped some guys walking down the street
"Aye have you seen alil girl big smile Afro...A necklace that says Rockee on it?"
"No i'm sorry ma." The guy frowned "Ill keep a look out tho."
"Thank you!" Drew grabbed my hand and we kept looking "Call jeffrey and shayla!"
"ok" I nodded I dialed their numbers on a 3 way call "hello?"
"Heeyy Yn wass up yo?" Jeffrey replied in a noisy place
"Hey yn....wassup?" Shayla asked
"Have yall seen rockee?" I cried
"No....why?" These dumb asses
"Drew checked on her 2 hours ago and she was sleeping in her room but when we got out the shower she was gone!" I croaked trying to hold in my tears
"Hold up ima go look for her at the beach." Shayla hung up
"Ill check the park!" Jeffrey yelled then hung up
"they're looking for her!" i blew air out and ran my finger thru ma hair
"Baby we're gonna find her....even if it takes my last Breathe!" Drew grabbed me and kiss ma forehead
"ima call Cami." I dialed the number
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"no answer." Ugh ....seriously
"Come on lets go get the car." Drew suggested and we started making our way back to the house.
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I Stared out the window and cried my eyes out i want my kid...i gave birth to that girl...Nearly died to keep her healthy and alive....she is my heart....with out her it kind of feels like im not breathing everythings so stale and cold. All im seeing is black and white...with out her my lights so dim....i Feel like she disappeared off the planet We've been driving for a good hour checking parks beaches day cares schools houses stores everywhere no luck....oh shit ...I forgot to call roc
"Aye hand me my phone." I sniffled "ima c-call roc."
Drew handed me my phone and i dialed the number
"ring ring ring I'm baaaack haha just kidding call me back later or ill just call you what ever ma nigga bye! beep"
"He sent me to fucking voicemail are you fucking kidding me!" I punched the dashboard "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" i screamed at the tip top of my lungs while pulling on my hair
"Woah Yn calm down!"drew touch my arm but i jerked away "Yn you know you have bad anxiety calm down."
"Take me to rocs Hotel please." My voice cracked ....i feel like my hearts going to beat out ma chest
"Ok." Drew sighed
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As soon as we got there i hopped out the car "...ill be right back i just need to let him know ok." I smiled at drew and he smiled back and nodded
I walked into the hotel lobby and made my way to thhe 5th floor....every second in that elavator was long and loud...the little noises that i usually couldnt hear began sound like pots and pans being banged together....I walked to rocs door and used the key he gave me. "Hey roc....youu in here." I walked to the bed room door and heard him laugh... I opened it.
"Roc ...Its about rockee she's-" I was cut off by the moans coming from roc and my best friend Roc was having sex with camille....I felt my heart stop literally
"...YN-"He started but i cut him off
"i was just coming to see if you were going to come get Rockee but i see you're busy....so nevermind." I began walk out holding in my tears
"YN.....YN .....YN!" Roc screamed but i ignored him I ran out the.hotel room and just collapsed at the end of the hall Punching the door in front of me not knowing i landed right infront rays room
"Yo what the f- Yn...yo ma why you crying." Ray lifted me up off the floor
"...r-rockee i-is missing a-and...Roc is with c-camille...th-they-" I couldnt even finsih my sentence
"Hey what do you mean Balboas missing?" He asked
"We cant find her." I cried
"Well come on ill help you look." he grabbed his jacket
"no.......well continue looking tomorrow right now..." I got cut off by roc running down the hall "....we all need rest ecspecially since roc used most of his energy pumping in and out of my best friend!" I snarled
"Yn can-" Roc began but i ran out of the hotel and into the car
"Wheres Roc." Drew asked
"Not home." I lied
"Want to keep looking?"
"Just take me home please." I whispered holding back tears
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Drew fell asleep...my phone wont stop ringing...my hearts racing...i cant even sleep...im just pacing back and forth running my fingers thru my hair...I stared at the pictures of me and rockee and the pictures of me and roc.....I grabbed the gun and shot at the pic of me and roc..and Then i lost it...I punched the mirror and screamed and cried
"Yo Yn what the hell!" Drew ran in the living room as i knocked a bunch of shit on the floor and punched almost everything in sight
"I WANT MY KID!" i punched the vase "I WANT MY F'UCKING CHILD!"
"Yn calm down!" He grabbed my arm
"LET ME GO!" i pulled and tugged until i eventually lost all of my energy and collapsed on the floor. Snuggling my head in drews chest
"Shhhhh." He stroked my hair
"I just want my baby." I cried
"I know i know shhhhhh." He wiped my tear
"I just want rockee back." I whispered
Day 1 and im already loosing my mind
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-if roc wouldve came to get rockee shed be here right now
-....you caught them....atleast you aint beat cami's ass
-yall niggas don't know Yn aint fought yet but Yn got hands
-Ray 2wice was worried bout you
-....you loosing yo mind
