singularity &larry&

JEALOUS;SILENCE

*a/n:double louis chapter because why not?!? this will be the last chapter i write in first person, it will be third now. except for poems of course. okay, enjoy, my frens!*

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DURING THE FOLLOWING WEEKS, I HAVE SEEN HARRY LACED BETWEEN TWO BOYS; ONE NAMED NIALL, A BLONDE IRISH BOY WITH A LOUD VOICE AND PIERCING EYES, AND LIAM, A GENTLE, KIND, AND QUIET BOY. HARRY HAD DUBBED NIALL AS MERCURY AND LIAM AS VENUS.

I DONT LIKE NIALL THAT MUCH. HE WAS TOO CLOSE TO HARRY FOR MY LIKING, HIS PLANET IRONICALLY BEING THE CLOSEST TO THE SUN. HE ALWAYS HAD HIS FINGERS LACED WITH HARRY'S, OR CUDDLING HIM, OR PLAYING WITH HIS HAIR.

IT MADE THE ALREADY TOO-STRONG DARKNESS INSIDE OF ME FESTER AND BECOME IMPOSSIBLY BIGGER; AN ICE COLD RAGE REPLACED ALL THE BLOOD IN MY BODY. I WANTED TO PUT TRILLIONS OF GALAXIES BETWEEN THEM. NIALL WAS TAKING MY LIGHT AWAY.

AT FIRST, HARRY WOULD LOOK AT ME QUITE OFTEN WITH A FACE SHOWING PURE PAIN. THEN CONFUSION. THEN ANGER. THEN DESPERATION. THEN LIFELESSNESS. WITH EACH CHANGE OF EXPRESSION, HE WOULD LOOK AT ME LESS AND LESS. UNTIL THE WORST DAY CAME: NOT AT ALL.

EVERY TIME HARRY HAD ME IN HIS PERIPHERAL VISION, EITHER OF THE BOYS WOULD DISTRACT, BLOCK, OR MOVE IN FRONT OF HARRY. THIS OFTEN CAME WITH THE FINGER FROM NIALL, AND AN APOLOGETIC SMILE AND AN EXPLANATORY GLANCE AT NIALL FROM LIAM.

HARRY DID LOOK AT ME ONCE. I DECIDED THAT I COULDNT TAKE THE SILENCE ANYMORE AND WENT OVER TO THEIR TABLE. AS I STOOD IN FRONT OF THE THREE, NIALL GLARED AT ME WHILE HARRY STARED DOWN AT HIS HANDS. WHEN HE DID LOOK UP, MY ARM WRENCHED AND MY LIPS TREMBLED.

HARRY'S EYES WERE RED AND PUFFY, DARK BLUE BAGS STANDING OUT STRONGLY AGAINST HIS PALE SKIN. HIS CHERRY RED, PLUMP LIPS WERE TORN AND CRACKED. MY MOUTH OPENED, BUT BEFORE A COULD SAY ANYTHING, NIALL SLAPPED A HAND OVER HARRY'S EYES AND SOMEWHAT GROWLED AT ME.

"harry doesn't fúcking want to see you louis. go away." THE BLONDE SAID, A BIG FROWN ON HIS FACE. HARRY DIDNT SAY ANYTHING AS I DEFEATEDLY WALKED BACK OVER TO MY TABLE. WHEN I SAT BACK DOWN, I LOOKED OVER AT THEM, MY BLOOD IMMEDIATELY BOILING AT WHAT I SAW.

NIALL'S ARMS WERE AROUND HARRY'S WAIST AND HIS LIPS WERE ATTACKING HIS CHEEK. HARRY LOOKED LIKE HE WAS GIGGLING, SOMETHING I LONGED TO HEAR. WHEN THEY HAD SEPARATED AND HARRY WAS LOOKING AWAY, NIALL GLANCED BACK AT ME WITH A SMIRK ON HIS FACE.

I WANTED TO GO OVER THERE AND SLAP THE IRISH OUT OF THAT BOY. HE WAS USING HARRY TO UPSET ME. HE DIDNT DESERVE HARRY. ONLY I DESERVED HIM.

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WHEN I WAS WALKING INTO MATHS LATER THAT DAY, MY FRIEND LUKE APPROACH ME WITH A CHEEKY GRIN ON HIS FACE. I HAD KNOWN HIM SINCE GRADE SCHOOL. I HAD ALSO KNOWN HE HAS HAD A CRUSH ON ME SINCE THEN TOO.

"so louis, do you wanna come to my party tonight? like, everyone will be there. you in?" HE ASKED, A SMALL POUT ON HIS LIPS.

"well...." I STARTED BEFORE I WAS CUT OFF BY A WHINE FROM LUKE.

"pleasssseeee lou!! it wouldn't be as fun without you." HE ASSURED. I CHUCKLED AND THOUGHT FOR A MOMENT BEFORE NODDING.

"sure luke. i'll go." I SAID IN MOCK DEFEAT. LUKE WAS JUST ABOUT TO TELL ME SOMETHING, BUT A CERTAIN CURLY BROWN-HEADED BOY I LOVED SO MUCH CUT IN BETWEEN US. I SUDDENLY HAD AN IDEA AND TURNED BACK TO LUKE.

"listen luke, i'll go. but only if you invite harry styles, okay? and make sure he comes. promise?" I ASKED AND RAISED MY EYEBROW. HE CHEWED ON HIS LIP, THINKING FOR A SECOND, BUT THEN SLOWLY NODDED.

"okay, i will lou. but only for you," HE WINKED FLIRTATIOUSLY, "so i'll see you at 7. bye louis." LUKE SAID BEFORE KISSING ME ON THE CHEEK, TO WHICH I FROZE TO, AND SCAMPERED OFF.

WHEN I TURNED BACK AROUND AND WALKED INTO CLASS, I SAW HARRY AT HIS NORMAL SPOT AT THE SMALL TABLE WE SHARED, HIS FACE RED AND BREATHING HEAVILY. MY HEART BEATED FASTER AT THE IDEA THAT HE SAW THE KISS. MAYBE HE WAS JEALOUS OF IT. THE THOUGHT THAT HARRY WAS POSSIBLY JEALOUS OVER A KISS ON THE CHEEK MADE ME BLUSH A LITTLE AS I TOOK MY SEAT.

WE SAT IN SILENCE, NOT DARING TO GLANCE AT EACH OTHER. I BIT HIS LIP IN DEEP THOUGHT, DECIDING IF I SHOULD CONFRONT HIM NOW OR AT THE PARTY. MY THOUGHTS WERE INTERRUPTED BY A SHARP INTAKE OF BREATH, THEN A SHUDDER FROM HARRY.

I GLANCED OVER AT HIM TO SEE THAT SOMEHOW WITHOUT ME KNOWING, MY HAND WAS BRUSHING AGAINST HARRY'S BARE UPPER ARM. I NOTICED THAT HIS ARM WAS FULL OF GOOSEBUMPS AS MY FINGERS MOVED ALONG HIS SKIN.

"hi harry." I MURMURED SOFTLY, GAZING AT HIM. HE FROZE IN HIS PLACE, HIS RED BOTTOM LIP BETWEEN HIS PERFECTLY WHITE TEETH.

"h-hi lo-louis." HE STUTTERED QUIETLY. IT TOOK ME ALL OF MY STRENGTH TO NOT TACKLE HIM IN A TIGHT HUG.

I SMILED AT HIM AND HE SMILED BACK, ALTHOUGH HIS WAS SMALLER AND MORE NERVOUS THAN MINE. OUR CONVERSATION ENDED AFTER THAT, BUT WE WERE BOTH SATISFIED. MY FINGERS CONTINUED TO STAY ON HARRY'S ARM, MY MOVEMENTS SOFT AND SLOW.

IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS, HE INCHED OVER TO THE HAND THAT WAS TOUCHING HIM AND RESTED HIS ONE ON TOP OF IT. WE STAYED LIKE THAT THE ENTIRE CLASS, HIS HANDS SLIGHTLY SHAKING WHILE MINE TINGLED. IT WAS AMAZING HOW JUST HIS TOUCH COULD FEEL LIKE HEAVEN TO ME.

I WANTED TO ASK HIM ABOUT NIALL, BUT I DECIDED NOT TO BECAUSE THAT MIGHT MAKE HIM UPSET OR ANGERY. INSTEAD, I JUST BASKED IN THE MOMENTUM OF HIS WARM TOUCH AND THOUGHT ABOUT HOW I WOULD SOMEDAY KISS HIS LIPS.

OH MY GOD, IM SO INLOVE WITH HARRY
STYLES.