You and Me Always

Chapter 5

I can't describe the feeling, but I've felt it before. I've felt it on the beach. I felt it in the cave but I just didn't know what it was. When Gale kissed me I never felt it, but when I kiss Peeta, I feel it. I feel it. I feel love. I'm in love?!?! With Peeta?!?! I can't be. I'll never fall in love. Will I? Am I? Peeta Mellark? Mellark. I've always loved his last name. What are you saying? You love his last name? You've gone more insane then you already were! And that says a lot.
Peeta lets go of me.
"Aww." I whine. He chuckles.
Gosh he's adorable.
Katniss!
What?
Your doing it again!
"You have no idea how much I've missed faking being in love with you." I say and he laughs.
"Same goes for me expect I wasn't faking."
"I know I was a jerk." I sigh. "You deserved so much better, your the sweetest, kindest guy I know."
He blushes.
"What about Gale?"
"Gale was a tough love person. It was always a relief when I was with you, like a breath of fresh air." He looks at me surprised.
"Where is Gale?"
"He got some fancy job in two, I said goodbye to him."
"Oh."
"No it was like saying goodbye to him forever, he killed my sister."
"Again I'm so sorry."
"You have nothing to be sorry about, only pulling your lips away to soon." I say laughing. He grabs me and starts to kiss me. A smile threw the kiss. He puts his hand on my face. I again wrap my hands around his neck. I lean against him.
"Katniss? Peeta?" Haymitch says and we break away. He's carrying bags full of food. His jaw dropped.
"Peeta had something on his month." I say looking away.
"If he had something on his mouth why were your lips on it?"
"Fine she was teaching me CPR." Peeta says. Haymitch looks at us.
"Mhmm."
"I took a course on that and wrapping your arms around the person's neck isn't a part of it Katniss." He says chuckling.
"It's part of my course." I say. Peeta just bursts out laughing and then I start laughing too. Haymitch just looks at us.
"Oh boy, you two." He says and goes inside. I can't stop laughing. Eventually I do and I lean on Peeta.
"Haymitch knows us to well." I say.
"Yeah." He stares at me.
"What are you looking at?" I ask.
"Your eyes."
"Now this is unfair my eyes are grey and boring, yours are beautiful."
"Your grey is a different kind of beautiful that the world can't appreciate, but I do." I feel my cheeks turn red.
"Did you really like me?" I ask.
"With my whole heart."
"And I blew it and left you there to die." I say.
"That's not true, you did what you had to do!" I don't know why but I embrace him.
"Thank you." I say into his shoulder as I start crying. "For being there for me when I wasn't for you."
"Your welcome Katniss." He says into my hair. My hair is down today since I didn't want to braid it.
"No, I could talk to you about things I couldn't talk to Gale about and for that I am forever grateful." I say letting go of him and wiping the tears of my face. There's a giant tear stain on Peeta's shoulder.
"Oh my gosh, I'm sorry." I tell him.
"No, no it's fine." He says laughing.
Suddenly a strong spring wind comes out of no where.
"Wanna come inside?" I ask. He looks unsure.
"Please." I beg. He nods. We go inside and Haymitch is making lunch.
"Oh joy! The boy's here!" He says. Peeta has a sad look on his face.
"Oh Peeta, you know I'm just messing with you, we love you. Some people have different ways of showing of showing it." Haymitch says looking at me. I blush.
"Well come on bread boy and girl on fire let's eat and catch up." He says and we sit down at the table. He knew Peeta was eating with us.
"You guys realize there's no cameras out there, the hunger games are over." He says chuckling. We stare at him and he stops. We continue eating. ButterCup jumps up onto Peeta's lap. For some reason ButterCup likes Peeta.
Suddenly I'm on the ground and Peeta's holding me there.
"Peeta! It's me! Don't do this." I say as he holds me down. Haymitch runs over to us. Peeta's pressing really hard on my stomach. That's where he's holding me down.
"MUTT! YOU KILLED MY FAMILY. I HAVE NOTHING LEFT!" He grabs my neck and I can't breath. I have a flashback to when I was running in after they rescued him. I was so happy to have Peeta back, but Snow took that away too. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. Haymitch do something!
"Peeta this isn't you!" Haymitch says and pulls him off just as I black out.
I'm so used to blacking out at this point.
"Peeta." I say. He doesn't turn around.
"Peeta." I repeat and touch his shoulder. He turns around but I see Snow over top of him. Controlling him by puppet strings. He turns on a button and he goes all mutt on me. I awake from the dream. What I said to Peeta in the hospital isn't true. Snow still can hurt Peeta, and he can still hurt me by hurting Peeta. Snow will always be inside him and because of that, he'll be in me too.
I get up out of my bedroom's at Haymitch and go down the steps to the living room where Haymitch is talking with Peeta on the sofa. ButterCup on Peeta's lap. I chuckle to myself.
"I have to stay away from her." He says
"It's the only way I can protect her."
No! Please don't leave!
"That's not the way to handle this Peeta, total abandonment isn't going to help her an any way it's just going to make her depressed."
"I know but maybe it's for the best." He says.
"No! It's not for the best." I say.
"Katniss.." Peeta starts.
"Sure you had a attack, big deal, I am okay aren't I? And the Capitol fixed you up so that it wouldn't happen as much as it did before. Now look at you your back to the sweet Peeta you were before, my best friend."
"But what if I really hurt you?" Peeta asks standing up.
"You won't."
"But.."
"YOU WON'T!" I yell. I walk over to him and embrace him. Haymitch watches.
"Your fine just the way you are." I say. He smiles at me.
"And so are you." He says. He looks at the scars on my arms.
"Their beautiful." He says. I look at a scar on his arm.
"This one is too." I tell him.
I bury my head into his shoulder. His shirt is a simple green T-shirt. He also wears a simple pair of jeans. My shirt is red and I also wear jeans. I must have missed dinner because it's pitch black outside. Oh well I'm not hungry anyway. We let go and sit down on the couch. Haymitch sits besides us and we watch TV for awhile. Peeta falls asleep next to me and so does Haymitch. A few hours later I wake up Peeta.
"Hey." I say. He opens his eyes and yawns.
"Hey."
We make a bed for Haymitch on the couch. It starts raining. Pouring.
"Hey I should get going." Peeta says. I sigh.
Ask him to stay with you!
Are you crazy?
Your the one talking to yourself.
I clear my throat. Peeta's just about to leave.
"Peeta wait!" I say and he turns around.
"Will you stay with me?" I ask unsure. He looks at me to confirm what I just said.
"Always." He says and closes the door and takes off his coat and shoes. We sneak past a snoring Haymitch and up to my room. I get into my Pj's and slip into bed. Peeta gets in after and wraps his arms around me. I feel safe.
"Thank you." I tell him.
"Your welcome." He says. I fall peacefully asleep.
I awake to the sound of pans crashing down in the kitchen. I haven't slept that good in a long time. Peeta's arms are still wrapped tightly around me as he sleeps. I glance at the clock, '5:33AM.' What would Haymitch being doing up yet.
I don't want to leave his arms so I just lay in them for hours until he rolls over and his arms fall off me. I decide to go downstairs.  It's now 10:30AM.
"Hey Katniss." Haymitch says looking up from what he's making. "I was thinking we have the boy over for breakfast. What do you think?"
"Sounds great." I say then chuckling to myself. Then Peeta goes down the steps. Haymitch just looks at me.
"Good morning everyone." He says yawning.
"Good morning." Haymitch say then starts to laugh but then turns serous a few minutes later.
"He spent the night?" Haymitch asks.
"Yeah." I say. "It was like the nights on the train. I didn't have one nightmare."
"Me either." Peeta says looking at me.

Later that day Peeta want to talk to me alone and I'm worried about what that means. He takes me to his house to talk. There are paintings everywhere.
"Your so talented." I say.
"Thank you." He respond. Then I see a picture of his brother and him smashed to the ground. We sit down at the table in his kitchen. There's flour everywhere.
"Sorry about the mess." He says trying to clean things up.
"Peeta, relax you should see my house." I say. He sits down.
"Katniss look I hurt you yesterday so...."
"Please don't say your gonna leave me."
"Katniss.."
"No!"
"Kat.."
"No! Not again."
"Katniss that's not what I was gonna say."
"Oh.. then what where you gonna say?"
"I was gonna say, whenever I have a attack.. try to get as fast away from me as possible. I know you wanna try and help me but please just trust me on this. Lock yourself in a room or something." I nod, if this means I get to spend time with him.
"Would you like some dinner?" Peeta asks standing up and looking in the fridge. "I've got some chicken and rice."
"That's sounds nice." I say.
"Hey it rhymed!" I say laughing.
"Ok all start making it." He says. I stand up and walk over to him.
"Can I help?"
"Katniss, remember the last time I tried to teach you how to cook."
"Ok touché." I say.