Follower Book

MY LIFE MIGHT BE IN DANGER

Okay. So when I go to school I get so nervous and clammy. I have two things that I'm suffering from so far...

1) Atychiphobia

2) The Fear of Rejection ( or Social Phobia )

3) And possibly Monophobia

It's all because of school. It's all because of school I'm suffering from these things. Atychiphobia is the MAIN thing.

And Atychiphobia is....

The fear of failure.

And I mean a EXTREME fear. For example, some symptoms are:

- Illusions of yourself failing
- Not thinking of nothing else but failure and fear

- Losing control
- Feeling overwhelmed and pressured
- Trembling or shaking
- Heart Pounding

And I have all of them. I did a test on this and it said my result is 'EXTREMELY SEVERE'.

Here:

http://www.changethatsrightnow.com/atychiphobia/online-test/

Social Phobia is the fear of being rejected and judgement. I really can't stand being judged because it feels as if I'm wrong or I disappointed that person. And I hate to disappoint you or anyone else, because I let you down and because I'll be stuck in a world of self loathing ( hating ).

Lastly, Monophobia. Very common. The fear of being sad, lonely and possibly pathetic. I hate being alone. That's why I have two characters in my mind that help me.

Yes, I have imaginary friends... one is tricky and sneaky... the other is bubbly and happy always cheering me on. But they always help me out... but the outcome is I cannot trust myself anymore.

I'm an Antychiphobic.... a Monophobic....and a Social Phobic...

Which is leading me closer to the edge of suicide and harming myself.

Plus, my imaginary friends names are:

- Morioko ( Good )
- Nani  ( Bad )

Oh I almost forgot! I'm suffering from Atelophobia ( the fear of never being good enough )

" You're not afraid of the dark, your afraid what's in it"

" You're not afraid of heights. You're afraid of falling "

" You're not afraid of people around you, you're afraid of rejection "

" You're not afraid of love, you're afraid of not being loved back "

" You're not afraid not let go, you're afraid to accept reality that he's gone "

" You're not afraid to try again, you're afraid of getting hurt for the same reason "