The 100 Season 4-5

chapter2 --poils --pg.8

Laras pov

I climb up a large tree then set myself on a thick branch . I crul my self up in a ball and cry. Aden was ment to win he was ment to live he was trained by the best.it not fair.

I hear twigs snap and leafes crunch underneath me suddenly I'm alert to everything around me. I slowly pull out my knife and put my back up against the tree trunk and watch as a figure passes the tree. I drop from the tree and grab the person while holding a knife to there throat "octavia?" I quell and let her go "Lara? What the he'll?" "I..I thought you were azgyda.... sorry " she rolls her eyes "you need to be careful you might end up killing your own brother" she says and continues of into the direction she was going. I follow "where you going?" I ask "somewhere you should go home" she tells me. I stop "I don't have a home" after I say that she stops too "yes you do. polis" she turns around "polis is your is your home" "so what are you saying you don't want me here" "of course I want you here look just go back to arkadia I have to go I'm busy " she goes to walk of  "Octavia" she stops "my home isn't polis..my home is with my family" she turns around " lincoln is my home. I know you think you can fix me and bell but truth is no one can " she walks over to me "look kid just go back there worried" she pulls me in for a quick hug I give her a half smile and nod then turn around to walk back "I'm glad you came here kid" Octavia yells from a distance I stop and smile not looking back I just keep walking.

I reach the gates of arkadia to see a very worried bellamy and raven "open the gates" bellamy yells "another grounder" someone yells "open the damm gates Johnston before I throw you over them " raven yells I laugh to myself as the gates open and as soon as I step in raven pulls me in for a hug "is she..usally a big hugger" I ask as she nearly squeezes the air out of my lungs. Bellamy laughs "we were worried"  raven let's go "I'm fine I always run off" I explain. Bellamy is gone now and I see lincoln standing in front of me. He walks over and hugs me "I'm sorry lara" he wispers I pull away and and shake my head. Turning around I see lexa and clarke next to bellamy. I give them a smile and go to walk to the bar

Bellamys pov

I go over to clarkes tent where lexa is also staying. I open the tents zip and poke my head in. Lexa is sitting with a bag packed and wrist exposed from what I see she is tracing over a drawing on her arm smiling to herself "huhum" I clear my throat she looks up and pulls down her sleave "lara's back " I say and turn around out of the tent to meet clarke standing right in front of me "ooh" she laughs nearly falling over "sorry you okay" I ask "fine did you say lara's back" she asks I nod lexa comes out and we all walk over to where lara is.

Octavia's pov

I run through the forest all the way to the drop ship I stop out side the front gate and just look at it the last time I was here we were all running around leaving to fight I remember telling my brother I am a grounder. I remember finn giving me lincolns sword, leaving here to help jasper get over his fears I remember leaving every night to see lincoln I'd tell him how much I hated this place how I wanted to be free and run in the butterfly field all day and sleep in the glowing forest. Little did I know back then that was easy. I walk in the ground is now green there are flowers blooming and you can hardly see the dead grounders I walk into the drop ship and up the ladder looking around I see the first place lincoln talked to me where we first kissed I remember every little detail about this place and that's not always a good thing. I walk back down and out to the graves I sit down and just look at all the people we've lost and so many more since then

*later*

I hear a rustling in the bushes I stand and take out my sword I put my hand over my stomach as If to protect it moving closer to the bush my sword out in front of me ready to kill but before I do clarke comes out "woah woah woah it's me it's only me" she has her hands raised. I bring sword down "clarke you scared the shot out of me, what are you doing here " I ask walking back "I came her to just see I haven't been here since Mt. Weather took us what about you "  "same just here to see" I sit back down "I take it your okay with having a baby then" clarke smiles looking down at my stomach I realized my hand is still over it protectively. She sits next to me "How did lincoln and bell take it?" "Lincoln took it very well he's happy" "and bellamy?" I look at her "you didnt tell him" "I can't what if he lashes out and hurts lincoln or me what if he disowns Me or something" "bellamy would never do that he loves you octavia he'd die for you he'd kill for you" I sigh "I'm just afraid " "what if you tell raven?" "I don't know there's so many people to tell.....clarke I want to have this baby I don't want it to die because of radiation or something.....I'm scared" I let a tear slip clarke pulls me in for a huge hug "it'll be okay everything will work out it always does" she keeps her arms around me and I let my head rest on her shoulder. Clarke has always been like the big sister I never had

Even later

Clarke and I walk back to arkadia and we slip in the back "you up for a drink?" I question "you blake love to drink" clarke smiles "shut up " I laugh "yeah sure let's go for a drink" we walk to the bar to see its empty the only person there is murphy "hey princess. Grounder pounder miss me" murphy calls "shut up murphy, your girlfriend is a grounder too and miss you you've been here the whole time " I say "I know just thought you missed your old names " he gets up and grabs 3 glasses and a bottle of whiskey "well we don't " clarke says as we sit down he pours some in each glass. He lifts up his glass "to late nights and old times " he smiles we lift up our glasses and giggle a bit. Murphy has changed alot but he will always be the sass king. "So where have you guys been " he asks taking a sip from his glass "dropship" clarke says "Huh funny I was there this morning, hey what's this about a new grounder " he asks "Lincoln's sister is here" I say "ouch that must be a bitch " "what?" "Oh come on O all this time and only now your meeting his family damm they must be crazy if he's waited this long" he jokes "oh shut up murphy" I laugh

And we laugh the rest of the night away until we have to go to bed
(She didn't drink the whiskey she had water later)
I stumble into my room careful not to wake anyone I look at lincoln sleeping peacefully. He's alive but how how can someone who was shot in the head then burden be alive. I don't care how I'm just so happy to have him back to be able to sleep next to him again and kiss him again . I look over at at table and see a note that says my name on it I put my sword down and open the letter

'Dear octavia
If you are reading this I love you if you are reading this I want you to know how much I miss you how much I miss your smile our little fights your hugs I miss having you around I'm sorry for choosing pike over you I'm sorry for everything bad ive ever said I understand you can't forgive me I wouldn't be able to either dear octavia if you are reading this I'm sorry I love you I just wanted you to know that ,goodnight
~bellamy '

Tears began to form in my eyes 'what am I doing'  I think to myself I run out the door out of the ark into he cold fresh breeze of the night. I walk to my brothers and ravens tent. I listen for a while to make sure it's quite then I slip in I see bellamy turned over facing away from the entrance and raven has her arms around his waist. I know usally it'd be the other way around but I know bellamys upset. I walk over to his side "I love you too big brother" I say and kiss his head and leave tomorrow I'm fixing this. I go back to mine and lincolns room and putting bellamys letter into a chest I slip it into my jacket pocket and close the chest over again taking off the jacket I have on now and putting on my bed clothes I slip into bed with lincoln.