I haven't been sleeping well cause of my thoughts. I am crying right now. My heart is pounding and its because I'm letting myself think. I have not yet listened to music today and I'm going to see how long I'll last. I will not cut and self harm in any way. But sometimes I wish it would just stop hurting so much. I wish these thoughts would go away so I can be truly happy, if even for an hour, it would be great. I hope you understand if I don't update soon.
