Love. Betrayal. Family. Life.

Family.

Today I found out my real dad is getting married soon, he's starting a stable life, and is planning on starting a family once they get married. Mind you he left me and my mom when I was 11 months old. He was an addict, a drunk. He choose drugs over his only daughter. Hearing this just makes my blood boil. You decided to get your shit together for someone you've been dating for only a year ? But your 17  year old daughter who needed you to be a father wasn't enough for you to get your shit together ?

You never got a chance to be a man and be a real dad?  You had 17 god damn years to try and be a real dad! To grow up and be a man !!  I hate you so much right now ! I did everything I could to try and get you to grow up ! I prayed every night, I waited for how many days, months, years for you to come thru the front door ? Where were you when that man took my innocence when I was 6!!!? Where were you when the kids at school wet bullying me ? Where were you when my best friend died ? Where were you when I wanted to die huh? When I had those pills in my hand ! No where to be found !!

You caused me nothing but pain.. and we are suppose to be family .