Sweet Dangerous Blood [discontinued. sorry]

Chapter 1

I remember clearly, those miserable days when I was still a human. I'm not saying that my new life as a vampire is less miserable. No! But so many things in my life are different now. I'm miserable in different ways than before.

My never ending thirst for human blood is the price I have to pay for as long as my existence in this universe. And it's not the only one. I often question my existence on this earth. There's no heaven and hell for vampire. We don't have a final place to rest once we vanished from this world. Or maybe we'll go straight to the hell? The hell which is scarier than the hell for human!

I even doubt whether I have a soul or not. I'm just a monster after all! I'm a predator. I'm always craving for killing human, to suck their blood until the last drop, satisfying my thirst and desire to destroy them.

For a century, I've been trying to control myself, to not kill human, to only hunt human when I don't have any choice, when I have reached my limit. 50 years ago, I had tried living by only feed on animal's blood, living alone deep in the forest. I could bear it for 3 months, but it's not a really good choice, because I became more savage and dangerous. Once I smell human blood, I'll kill them all without thinking anything, reminding me of my first 10 years living as a new vampire.

So, I decided to still feed on human, without killing them. I never feed on any human, only bad human. How could I know which human is bad? I see their future. Reading human's future is not a good experience for me. I had been despising my strange power even until now. It makes me mad whenever I read on someone's future and what I see is the horrible things, such as how trashy and evil that human would be in the future! I had to control my anger really hard back then, when I read on a human's future and what I saw was just him being the rapist and the serial killer in the next 3 years! I want to kill him right at that moment! But if I did, then I would become worse than him. Plus, Yuta had warned me to not mend on human's business. I can't change human's future! Once I involve myself too deep, everything would change, and it could become worse than it should be. So I've learned to stay chill, to not involve my feelings. I shouldn't pity human.

"They're your food! Don't think! Just drink! Maybe it's because you're only 100 years, so you still have your human's heart? Think of human as... food, as... what your favorite food when you were still human? Fried chicken? Yeah! Now think of human as fried chicken!"

I rolled my eyes. "Of course! I can't read fried chicken's future!"

Yuta slapped my back. "Come on, saint Ten! You've been too kind by only feeding on bad human. No need to become a hero for them too! The vampire hero? That would be the joke of the universe!"

Saint Ten. That's what Yuta think of me. I'm hardly a saint. I had killed too many human, especially back then when I was still a newborn.

I'm not a saint, but you could say... I have control over my thirst, as long as I'm not starving myself for too long, as long as I regularly feed on human's blood and not only animal's blood, then I would never kill any human.

So, blood is not the highest price I have to pay in this new life as a vampire, since finally I could control it. Eternity. That's the highest price! I will never be able to control it, unless Yuta kill me and make me vanish from this world.

When I mean eternity, that's mean eternity in everything! Including the pain, loneliness, sadness, hatred. Those negative feelings will always haunting me for forever. I will forever remember those pains, the pain given to me when I was still human. It's like an un-cure able scar.

I remember vividly, as if those scenes are happening right in front of my eyes, how people despised me, making fun of me, treating me as if I was worse than a trash. I remember how my classmate blindfolded me, and covering my head with a trash bin full of trashes and shit so I couldn't see their eyes, so I couldn't see their future. Bad future. Strangely, I always saw their bad future. I rarely got a sight of a good one, that's why everyone hates me. They thought my warning was just an empty word, and they accused me for making their life more miserable than what I saw on my sight.