Atheist

I'm Okay I'm Okay I'm Not Okay

I thought that raising you Christian might have given you some respect" she shouted at me it was enough for me to realize that she doesn't love me she wants a mini her "fine I'll leave since you obviously wished you didn't give birth to me" at this point I was starting to shout "AND HAVE A FUCKING GOOD LIFE" I ran upstairs and quickly packed a bag not thinking about where is go I ran outside and didn't stop I was probably around five kilometres away from that house when I broke down crying I sat at the base of a tree at some park kids playing around me and a few teenagers focused on their phones that reminds me I grabbed my iPod nano and started playing my MCR playlist and got back up they're not worth your tears Laura they're not worth your tears I wiped my tears coffee coffee will make it better right coffee makes everything better I headed to the closest Starbucks slipping in the door behind someone and getting in line "hello welcome to Starbucks what can I get you?" The cashier asked "umm can I please get a tall black coffee?" She nodded typing something into the computer "that'll be $2.75 I grabbed my wallet and handed her the money after paying I walked over to a seat and took a sip of my coffee subconsciously while I only payed attention to my music which was now playing Vampire Money I mentally sang
along
Well, are you ready, Ray?
Yeah
How about you, Frank?
Oh, I'm there baby

How about you, Mikey?
Fucking ready
Well, I think I'm alright

One, two, three, four

Three, two, one, we came to fuck
Everybody party till the gasman comes
Sparkle like Bowie in the morning sun
And get a parking violation on La Brea till it's done

Hair back, collar up, jet black, so cool
Sing it like the kids that are mean to you, c'mon
When you wanna be a movie star, c'mon
Play the game and take band real far, c'mon
Play it right and drive a Volvo car, c'mon
Pick a fight at an airport bar

The kids don't care if you're all right, honey
Pills don't help but it sure is funny
Gimme, gimme some of that vampire money, c'mon

Three, two, one, we got the bomb
Everybody hurry till the tax man comes
Glimmer like Bolan in the morning sun
And get your finger on the trigger
Tap the barrel of the gun

Hair back, motherfucker
Jet black, so cool
Sing it like the kids that are mean to you, c'mon

When you wanna be a movie star, c'mon
Play the game and take band real far, c'mon
Play it right and drive a Volvo car, c'mon
Pick a fight at an airport bar

The kids don't care if you're all right, honey
Pills don't help but it sure is funny
Gimme, gimme some of that vampire money, c'mon

One, two, three, four

Well, three, two, one, we came to fuck
Everybody party till the gasman comes
Sparkle like Bowie in the morning sun
And get a parking violation on La Brea till it's done

Hair back, collar up, jet black, so cool
Sing it like the kids that are mean to you, c'mon

When you wanna be a movie star, c'mon
Play the game and take band real far, c'mon
Play it right and drive a Volvo car, c'mon
Pick a fight at an airport bar

The kids don't care if you're all right, honey
Pills don't help but it sure is funny
Gimme, gimme some of that vampire money, c'mon
C'mon, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon, on, on, on, on
I looked at my cup empty walking over to the garbage my side backpack strap firmly against my shoulder I through it out and head down the street there's a park down Kingston I think I'll just sleep at the base of a tree tonight I guess I get to the park by around 8:00 "GOODNIGHT YOU UGLY WORLD" I yell and slip in my headphones choosing to fall asleep to Bulletproof Heart
Gravity don't mean too much to me
I'm who I've got to be
These pigs are after me, after you
Run away like it was yesterday
And we could run away
If we could run away,
Run away from here
I gotta bulletproof heart
You gotta hollow point smile
We had our run away scarves,
Got a photograph dream on the getaway mile
Let's blow a hole in this town
And do our talking with the laser beam
Coming out of this place
In a bullet's embrace
Then we'll do it again
How can they say, Jenny could you come back home?
'Cause everybody knows you don't
Ever wanna come back,
Let me be the one to save you
Gravity don't mean too much to me
I'm who I've got to be
These pigs are after me, after you
Run away like it was yesterday
When we could run away,
When we could run away, run away from here
I'm shooting out of this room
Because I sure don't like the company
You stop your preaching right there
'Cause I really don't care
And I'll do it again
So get me outta my head
'Cause it's getting quite cramped, you know
Coming ready or not
When the motor gets hot
We can do it again
The papers say, Johnny won't you come back home?
'Cause everybody knows you don't wanna give yourself up
Tell the truth and God will save you
Gravity don't mean too much to me
I'm who I've got to be
These pigs are after me, after you
Run away like it was yesterday
And we could run away,
And we could run away, run away from here
And though I know how much you hate this
Are you gonna be the one to save us
From the black and hopeless feeling
Will you meet 'em when the end comes reeling?
Hold your heart into this darkness
Will it ever be the light to shine you out
Or fall and leave you stranded
Or are you gonna be the one left standing?
You're gonna be the one left standing
You're gonna be the one left standing
Gravity don't mean too much to me
Is this our destiny?
This world is after me, after you
Run away like it was yesterday
And we could run away, run away, run away
Run away from here
Yeah, away from here
Away from here

I wake up to a sharp kick in the side I look up and see three men who look quite drunk and possibly high standing in front of me "what are you doing out here all by yourself kitten?" the one closest to the right asks I grab my bag and go to stand up just to be pushed right back down to the ground "looks like we've got a spitfire tonight guys" the same guy who called me kitten said he fumbled in his pocket for a minute before pulling out a small object I saw him move something with his thumb it's a switch blade I started to freak out but the other two guys held me down while the one with the knife came up to me and brought the knife to just below my neck "this is gonna be a fun night guys" he slurred and moved the blade down slicing open both my shirt and my bra nicking my skin in a few places "GET THE FUCK OFF OF ME" I scream tears flowing down my face as I thrash around "pass me the duct tape Seth he calls "PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE GET OFF OF ME" I scream again the tears continuing to stream down my face probably causing my whole face to be wet at this point the guy just chuckles "kitten we haven't even started yet" he started to rip a piece of duct tape from the roll "she said to get the fuck off of her" I heard a very familiar voice say from somewhere behind me "and what do you think you're gonna do about it?" the 'kitten guy' said to the person who was trying to save me this I don't know what he did but it made the guys who were holding me down scramble off me and run I pulled my knees to my now bare chest "here" he handed me a large black sweatshirt "th-thanks for helping me" he looked towards my bags "why were you out here in the first place?" I looked up at him and saw a face that I defiantly wasn't expecting to see Gerard Way was staring back at me I pushed all the excitement down to assert him "my parents kicked me out because I'm not a carbon copy of my mother" I looked to the ground as the traitorous tears started to appear again he stepped forward bringing me into a hug "I'm sorry" he said rubbing circles on my back while I gripped onto his shirt and buried my face in his chest crying my eyes out "you can stay with me if you'd like" I just nodded into his chest as I continued to cry I don't know how long we stood there me crying into his chest but I'm pretty sure I left tear stains on his shirt after my eyes couldn't produce anymore tears I pulled away "I'm sorry" I croaked he gave me a quizzical look I pointed at the large tear stain "your shirt"

Finally finished writing this chapter third attempt but I think I like it okay umm sorry if the Vampire Money lyrics are off I was being lazy and copy and pasted them from MetroLyrics hope you're enjoying the book so far word count 1653