I remained staring at Radicus's eyes na matalim naman ang mga mata sa akin. Is he mad? Kunot ang noo nito and I have to stop my urge to lift my hands to touch it. Gaya ng ginagawa ko noon. I have to remind myself that he's not mine..not even before.
"Oh. So you two are friends too?" Gab's teasing voice really sucks! Halata kapag nang-iinis. His grin shouts everything of his intention.
Radicus slowly showed his smirk as if Gab said something off. Ramdam ko ang pag-angat ng kamay nito mula sa baywang ko hanggang sa likuran ko. He's caressing my back with his finger and it's giving me goosebumps!
"Friends? I don't think we are better of friends. We are more--"
"He's Carmela's boyfriend Gabriel. You know, my half sister right.." I immediately cut Radicus. Kahit pa alam kong may ideya naman si Gab tungkol sa amin, hindi ko isusugal ang pagkakataong ito para lang marinig pa ng iba.
Mas lalo naman hindi maipinta ang mukha ni Radicus dahil sa sinabi ko. Bahagya akong lumayo at agad lumapit kay Gab para kumapit sa braso nito na sa gulat ko ay agad nitong hinawakan ang kamay ko. Tiim-bagang nakatingin si Radicus sa amin habang hindi naman bumabalik sa normal ang tibok ng puso ko. Lalo naman akong nakaramdam ng kaba nang makitang nakatitig sa direksyon namin si Carmela. Radicus sighed and smiled sardonically.
"I'd rather not play a game tonight if I were you. I might lose my sanity." Radicus muttered.
"Rad!" I heard Carmela's voice na papalapit na sa amin. I slightly pinched Gab's hand asking him to do something.
"Well, this is my favorite game. Anyway, your girl is looking for you. Excuse us." Gabriel said as he winked at me.
Tumalikod na kami ni Gab para lumayo na but I can still feel someone's staring at me kaya kahit labag sa loob ko ay lumingon ako sa direksyon ni Radicus na ngayon ay kayakap si 'Carmela na malawak ang ngiti. I think she's greeting Radicus.
"Someone's jealous." Gab commented. I glared at him.
"You're doing a lot of effort to throw him away to your life but I think he still has something for you."
"He once loved Carmela. Noon pa man sila na."
"Are we talking about their past?" Gab asked. I didn't answer.
"So past nga. But what do you think of them now?"
"They're just fixing it. Because I ruined it." I answered.
"That doesn't answers my question. Bakit ba kayong mga babae ang hilig niyong gumawa ng sarili nyong kinatatakutan? If we can leave past behind I don't think this will get complicated."
"Hindi naman yun ganoon kadali. Kung ibang babae siguro pwede, but knowing that it is my half-sister plus my family set-up, I didn't find it working between the two of us."
"But it did work once which means hindi ganoon kaimposible."
"The thing is...nature ng mga taong matakot humarap sa napakaraming risk. We are all afraid of complicating others so we avoid it not knowing we are making it even worser. We affect two sides now, yourself and the others. I just don't get it why there are people choosing to live that way wherein they have the control of themselves."
"When you are making a point, I just don't know what to say. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ayaw mong mag-abogasya at mas pinili mong maging doctor." I teased him but Gab's eyes turned sad and then he smiled.
"May nangyari ba when you left the country?" I asked him. He just tapped my shoulder and didn't answer.
"What made you say that?" he asked.
