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Damn

It's so f hard knowing that even if u try ur hardest...you'll never seem to help even a little bit... I've tried so hard I wanna help but how can I? Every time I feel think I'm helping I just screw things up again...I wanna help but how can I without hurting someone else. Half of the time when I try people don't listen I feel so weak I feel so useless and the one who always screws up. I've never admitted it but I will now, for the past year I've felt like the one girl who screw up everything in everyone's life, I change them and NOT for the better. I can't even help my friends who get hurt I can't even help my mother and father even tho I'm trying so hard I feel so pressure but how can I stop it? I'm trying I'm trying I'm trying I can do it Ivan do it I can do it, these words repeat repeatedly why can't they be true? I always disappoint everyone I always disappoint my brothers I embarrass my friends it's true, I'm fat, and ugly af, I'm tired of trying to ignore my parents I'm disgusting u may say I'm not but a lot of u guys don't know me I'm really really....ICANT even explain Idk what I want or why I'm righting this....i just wanna help it's what I'm supposed to do its so hard I'm so stressed sometimes I cry over the dumbest stuff, and in class id feel like running to the bathroom and crying so hard for no reason it's so much pressure so much stress and so just I can't explain how this feels I just wanna help but I couldn't even help my sister, and I won't be able to either becuz idk how to, she won't be able to go to school anymore...she won't be able to take care of herself....my head is spinning this was supposed to be published 2 days ago but I wrote a little each day cuz I wa too stressed to write this I'm so stressed and pressured and now I have to try way more harder......cuz...

I'm gonna be a aunt 😐👌👍👎