Mellifluous Vignettes

It's always you who

I paint in my words

But tonight

I'm unraveling and crumbling

To the ground

Six feet under and maybe

I will finally be able

To fall asleep one night

With no tears

No more battle scars

But this phantom pain

Won't leave me,

The only things that stay

Are the ones you want

To let go,

Tie them to a string

On a helium ballon

And let the world deal with

Your secrets,

But helium dies in the hailstorm

I'll keep them to me

For one more night

One more darkness

I will let them rip me apart

With no respect towards

The image others have to see

I've never thought

My monster would drag down

Others

Till I see them all on my level

And deeper

Stand my brothers and sister

Don't fall prey to the trap

The trap of my heart

Mind

And soul

Run far away from me

Before I'm forced to leave you

Again

I'll smile tommorow

I'll laugh and live

But when the sun is gone

So is the Kat you know

You love

You hate

You will never trust again

But who really loves me?

Who looks at me

And thinks

Very simply ,

Just says to themselves,

"Her"

Who sees me at my lowest

Pushing away others

And sobbing uncontrollably

And wants to stay with

The most destructive girl I know

For as long as

This illusion allows?

And why?

Why stay when everyone is

Gone?