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Imagine [Karamatsu | Angst]

A/N: I am sorry if I offered anyone. I wanted to apologise is it seemed racist in a way when I said pale? I meant cause she is a ghost and because dead and dead = pale. I didn't even think about skin color, again sorry.

Karamatsu POV

I sat down on the bench after my beloved buraza got his happy end and found Esp Kitty again.

I felt a little sad and something I couldn't put my finger on.

No. Stretch that.

I was really sad. Like so really really sad and lonely.

Yes, lonely. I was lonely.

I mean sure I was painful, but what have I ever done to my brothers that they hate me so much? Maybe if I never existed.. then they would have a better life..?

It was getting dark outside.. I should head home.

Home..? Do I really have a home? Should I be going to that place, where the other five males are and disgrace me so much? Is that really it?

Or should I go to Chibita and ask him if I can spend the night there and go home tomorrow. Maybe that would be.. better?

Being lonely and hated sucks. Maybe I should die after all? I mean no one seems to miss me anyway, so where is the harm?

"You're lonely, aren't you?"

I looked to my left. There sat a pale girl. She wore a light white dress and no shoes. She looked at me. Her facial expression showed concern and something I knew.. something so painfully known.

What was it, what was it her face showed me?

Was it pain? Yes. That could be it. It looked like she was in pain. In big pain.

"You are lonely, no?"

She asked again. Was she really talking to me? I looked around the park, there was no one to be seen.

"Yes I am talking to you", she said and finally I looked her in the eye. Her eyes were smooth, a nice (eye color) that didn't shine but it wasn't dull either.

"I'm not exactly lonely, darling.", I said with shaking voice. No way she will believe this. "You're a bad liar", she answered me.

"I'm a guilty man, my dear Karamatsu girl", I told her. "Why are you lonely? Is it because of your brothers? Because they don't care? Or is it because ya have no one?"

What? "What?" How come she knows all of this? I never told anyone about how I feel. Hoe come she knows? Who is she?

"You're sad and depressed. Because of your brothers, aren't you?", she said again. I gave up on keeping my cool act. Aparently it was not necessarily because she can read me like an open book.

So I just nodded in approval. Because shit. She was right.

"Do you want to die?"

This question took me a little a back. I had to think a little bit about this.

Yes. Death sounded so pleasing right now. I nodded again, not trusting my voice.