all the things she said. | matsus x reader |

PS: I love you. [Jyushimatsu | Angst?]

He didn't understand it at first. He really didn't. Days later he finally understood why they made that decision, and he was not okei with their decision.

It all started one week ago with the plain message

"To Jyushimatsu:
I'm breaking up."

He didn't want to understand why they would do something like this. They were so happy, just yesterday you two were in the parcel having a nice picnic. So why? Why would they do this?

The moment his smile faded his brothers new something was wrong. They confronted him about it and and went to their door and confronted them about it too.

Everytime they would met on the street the respective brother would ask: "(name)? Why did ya break up?" They would ignore the Matsuno and just pass by.

Once Osomatsu got so pissed they stopped (name) with force and made them look at him. Their reaction wasn't a positive one because it ended in the police dragging the red Matsu away.

Jyushimatsu stood in front of the mirror in his bathroom. There was one thing that would describe how he felt. Stupid. "Of course I am stupid. I should have counted with something like that.", he sunshine boy dragged his body into the living room where his brothers sat.

"Jyushi please smile. They were a bitch! You have to get over them!", Ichimatsus words hurt Jyushimatsu even more. He had no right to call them a bitch because their feelings changed.

But he didn't understand.

Then came the SMS. The SMS that changed everything.

"Hello Todomatsu. I'm (names) mother. I am sorry that Jyushimatsu had to go trough such a hard time. Please tell him to come to the hospital. I will be waiting for him there."

That's all that SMS said. Faster than anyone could tell Jyushimatsu was out the door, cause no matter how much they hurt him, he loved them and if their mother asked him to come he would, he had respect for her.

For the six years of relationship they had, she was a big help.

As soon as he got there, he saw (names) parents. Even their dad who was supposed to be away overseas.

"Hello.", was all he said. Than he noticed how hard their mother was crying and how blood shot the eyes of their father looked. "Did something happen to (name)?", the yellow Matsu asked worried.

Meanwhile his brother arrived at the hospital as well. They all listed to what the parents had to tell: "I know (name) broke up with you pretty abrupt. But they're really sorry for that. Believe me they cried for days. I told them they shall not hi with this stupid plan. And I primed them I won't tell you but.. I can't just not...", and former Mrs. (Last name) broke down crying.

"Tell us what happened already", Osomatsu barged without any feelings or so and got punched in the face for that.

"What my wife tried to say is ... is that.. (name)...." gasps filled the air. Everyone knew it but no one wanted to say it our loud. ""... they died. Is that it?", Jyushimatsu broke the silence.

Their mother just cried more at this and even some of the brothers started sobbing, one like Karamatsu or Todomatsu.

Jyushimatsu didn't say anything. For a long while it was just silence, the only sounds being those of the hospital.

"Can I see them?, muttered out between sharp breaths. He didn't cry. He didn't wanna cry. He cried the past few days enough. A nurse that was called by (names) father brought him to they're room.

He was his boy-/girlfriend and that's when he broke down. "Why did you have to die.. what was eben wrong ??? Why didn't ya tell me anything ??? That is not fair for fucks sake! (Name) please! Wake up! Ya can't die on me ! Come on."

Their face was peaceful and they looked so relaxed, that reminded him of how in pain their face looked when they last saw each other. Was it because of this?

In the end he had to be dragged out of their room. And he cried and cried. Into the chest of his oldest brother. It was painful, so painful to let someone lover just for like this.

He didn't even have the chance to tell them he loved them so so much.

"That's for you. (Name) let it on their desk." It was a letter.

"Dear Jyushi,
when you're going to be reading this I will probably be dead. I never intended to break up with you. I did though. I hope you didn't suffer all too much. You're a really great person, you're the sunshine, literally. I had an terminal illness and I couldn't be saved. The doctor told me at my last visit I don't have much longer and that my time will end around the end of October. Around then when you'll be reading this letter.
My plan was actually to break up with you so you'll never have to experience how it is to feel like you could have done nothing for me. I wanted you to think that I've got a new lover and that I am happy, but if you're reading this it means my parents didn't keep their promise to me (I'm not mad at them please tell them). All I actually wanted to tell you is how much you mean to me. You were my whole life. I really love you so so much, and I am so happy that I could spent six beautiful years next to you. It were the best six in my life. Thank you.
Please find someone new and love them. Make a family with them and have children, like you always wanted. Have sextuplets.
I will not take more of your time now, thank you again for everything and tell your brothers that I love em. (Like friends u know?).

PS: I love you.

Your beloved (name), ♡"

~ Chapter end ~

WOHO more angst for ya. At first I wanted to make it with Oso but than I was like nah I have too many other Oso ideas so let's make someone other suffer (that is not Karamatsu). So here we are lol. Also I made the reader gender fluid??? So ya can choose if ya want to be girl or boy?? Okei anyway it's once again short before 2 am so I am going to nap.. night loves and thanks for 4k!!!! > v <

- Toffie out.