I'm awake right now,
My eyes are wide open,
Tears rolling down.
Sleep is meant to come,
And it will come,
But I don't want to sleep.
I want to lie down to my side,
And think about my life,
About the me who is no longer the same.
Once I was a beloved granddaughter,
I lived with my grandparents,
And adored them.
I still do,
So why then,
Have I changed?
My attitude has changed,
When I love someone I don't show it,
I hide it behind a curtain of evil.
I am evil,
I am no longer so likeable,
Heck even my mother rejects me.
The friends I made,
The ones who listened,
I have left them all behind.
I left them,
I deceived them.
I told them I'll come back but I never did.
But what can I do?
I am no longer under my own control,
None of this was done by choice.
I am sad right now,
I loathe every part of me,
But it's all out of my hand.
Someone else is holding the remote,
People say it's god,
But I don't know if I believe in him.
But I've always known this one thing,
Sadness is addictive,
Much more than any illegal drug.
ESTÁS LEYENDO
My Painful Plea
PoetryI worry about things, and they make me cry. There are those days when I keep saying, why? I blame it on myself, for all that pain. When I got confused and picked the wrong lane. Poems I write, may mean no shit to you, but to me.. They're my handke...
