Issy's pov
"My life is fucked" I sobbed into kadian's arm
"No it isn't babe" she snuggled onto me
"Yes it is, I'm here in la dealing with anxiety because I feel like I should be nice to everyone I meet. I'm no where in life, my sister is in university trying her hardest to get a career in teaching and I'm still struggling to find a job and pay off the mortgage for this apartment, you are my only hope kadian" I cried
"You saw my mum you saw how angry she was when I left on that plane, she wanted me dead. And I can't go back, I have no one to look up to, except you, I thought this was gonna be our dream kadian"
"It is, we have each other and that's all that matters" she tried calming me down
"You don't understand, I just need somebody to love, that will protect me even more than you do"
"What about Ethan" she asked
"Nothing about Ethan, he doesn't treat me normally, I feel in a trance around him, like he's turned me into some antisocial freak" i sniffed
I jumped up "I need to go somewhere"
I walked out and stormed the door, I fast walked outside as I went down to the arcade
I knew that Ethan was coming over to see me today so I wanted to see how much he respected the little things I do for him
So I walked into the arcade and found a small crane machine
I tried at least 16 times spending about $5 on a mini toy
"Issy" a girly voice screeched from behind me
I turned around to my old school friend, Kayla Rickman, no one was allowed to bully her because her brother died 7 years ago, which gave her permission to be a cunt, overall she was high schools baddest bitch.
"Kayla! What are you doing in LA?" I smiled hugging her
"I literally just moved like 2 weeks ago, are you still living with kadian?" She smiled
"Uh yeah, funny, do you still remember her from high school?" I asked
"Well of course, we were like besties like you and me!" She giggled
"You called us crack head whores and spat on our shoes" I raised my eyebrow
"People change" she lifted her shoulders
"Anyways toodles" she blew and kiss and she was off
I rolled my eyes and turned back around to play again
I finally won a small cat and I grabbed it out of the machine as it fell and smiled down at it, walking back home
••
I opened the door and I saw Ethan's back in front of me
He slowly turned around
"Hey" I awkwardly smiled
"Hi" I said in his deep voice
I held up my toy and smiled to him "I got you a kitty" I waved it about
He took it out of my hands as I tucked a strand of hair out of my face
He put it in his pocket "thanks"
I knew it, he didn't give one shit about the things I did for him
I gave him a stern look
••
"The dinner was bomb gray, wanna join me In the kitchen to do some washing up?" Kadian winked at grayson
"Oh boy do I" he smiled joining kadian as they went into the other room
Ethan immediately looked at me "just us" he commented
"Yeah" I refused to make eye contact with him
"You know moments like this with you Issy are really the highlights of my day" he tried making me smile but it didn't work
"You don't even really love me" I stuttered as I made a pattern on the table with my finger
"Oh baby, I don't love you? Why, you Issy are the only love that I've found in a long long time. You probably don't even take the time to understand my desire to you and your, body" he looked down at my torso
I know I said I didn't want to look at him, but that just made my eyes connect to his.
"Go on; kiss me" his raspy voice whispered
I pushed up my chest from my chair and leaned up over the table to indulge in his beautiful facial details
You could say that I was trying to shut him up or make him happy. But my instinct was telling me that I was just falling in love
Our noses brushed up against each other's as I leant over the table
His minty breath was shaking after catching this nervous adrenaline when I was close to him
He closed his eyes slowly as he craved my lips against his.
"ETHAN CAN YOU HELP WITH THE DISHES" grayson called
Ethan's eyes opened and he groaned "I'm coming" he moved away from me as he moved back his chair
He walked casually into the kitchen as he left me leaning on a fucking table.
-Issy
