summer school // phan

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(Skip to last day before summer school)

Dan's POV

I didn't have to go to summer school all summer because I had good grades in other classes. Today was my last day of actual school then tomorrow I'll just continue on with my normal routine. I wonder who else will be there? Will I be the only one?

Phil's POV

Am I the reason Dan and I can't be friends? Is he saying he's the problem because I am? I'm just boring ol' Phil Lester, nothing to see here. Dan will probably hate me even more after he sees me attending summer school with him. I didn't go back to my locker before 1st and 2nd class so I was a bit early. I pulled out my books and started reading what we had been learning. I didn't really study at school but I didn't have anything else to do. The silence in the classroom faded as students came in and talked to others.

As this point I had pulled out my phone and was playing a game.

"Nerd" a boy knocked my phone out of my hands as well as some of my books and it hit a girl on the back of the neck
"Hey!" She turned around giving me a sharp look
"S-sor-ry" I mumbled as I picked it up

The boy who knocked my phone out of my hands was now pointing and laughing at me along with his friends. The boy was probably an inch shorter than me with blackish hair and to the looks of it, was on the football team. He was wearing a letterman jacket with the school's team name on it. I've seen him around, and he's bullied me before. He knocks my books over and shoves me against walls, lockers or anything that'll make my body ache in pain, he'll punch my stomach and do lots of things but I couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't defend myself, I was weak. I couldn't tell anyone, I'd get hurt more. All I could do was just let it happen.

Dan soon arrived, he looked like he was deep in thought. He was on auto-pilot I guess as he just sat down pulling out his books. "Dan?" I said taking him from his thoughts. "Huh?" He said blankly, "Nothing, never mind." Class soon started and Dan didn't talk much. I didn't talk to him because I thought he was mad at me or something so I just let him be silent.

The rest of the day went by quite fast and when the dismissal bell went off everyone was ecstatic for summer. I didn't though, I just left like every other day at school. On the walk home I felt myself walking faster, getting slightly angry, I didn't know why. As soon as I walked inside I went up to my room. I flung myself onto my bed just laying there trying to calm myself down. What was I so mad at? Perhaps I wasn't mad, but exhausted. I felt like something big was going to happen, soon. I don't know if it'll be good or bad. It was definitely going to be something important.

I couldn't get Dan out of my thoughts. Why couldn't Dan be my friend? Why did he seem so mad at me when I had done nothing? Did I do something? Why did want to be friends with someone who didn't want to be my friend? Why can't I just forget about him and try to make a different friend? Why was I so obsessed with Dan? Why did I constantly want to be with Dan? When I was with Dan I felt happiness which was slightly weird because he seemed to be the 'bad boy' of the school and always in a blank, 'don't even try to talk to me' mood. But when I looked in Dan's eyes I saw something, something different than everyone else. Everyone saw Dan as no more than a tough guy who was considered a bully or even 'emo' or 'goth', but I saw more than that. I saw an broken boy and I wanted to find out what was behind those beautiful brown eyes and help fix it.

My brother ran into my room snapping me from my thoughts, "Hey lil bro" my brother lazily stood against my doorway

"Ever heard of knocking?" I chuckle as Martyn sat down next to me on my bed

"Want to go out for some dinner?"

"Yeah sure"

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We went to small restaurant and just chatted for a while.

"Phil, are you feeling alright?" Martyn stopped eating, making eye contact

"Yeah of course" I lied, no need to drag my brother down with me.

"You've become even more silent than before and you're going to summer school? You always have been saying that you hate school, you don't need to go, your grades are amazing. What happened to you Phil?"

I looked down at my half eaten plate of food. I didn't know how to answer that because something did happen, Dan. How do I tell my brother that the 'bad boy' Dan Howell almost became my friend but blocked me out and now we can't be in the same room without it being awkward. I felt my whole body go slightly numb thinking about what has happened.

"Phil?" Martyn took me from my thoughts

"S-sorry. I don't know, I'm alright though. Everything is fine. Don't worry' I lied

"If you need to talk, I'm here" I just nodded at the offer

The truth was I wasn't fine. I wanted to just crumble, cry and I also wanted my emotions to stop. My mind was so busy all the time. I needed to sleep. I looked out the window of the car on the way home. The sky was changing from blue to black and stars became visible. After pulling up to my house I just returned to the position I was in before Martyn had took me out, laying down pondering about life. The light of the moon shone into my dimly lit room. I didn't know what emotion I was feeling. My body stiffened while I thought about how my life may completely change or stay the same tomorrow; and it was all up to one person,

Dan Howell.

A/N

nobody reads my stories but whatever

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