•After YouTube•Vikkstar Fiction

dead

I have to decide to focus on something

Lachlan
Ethan
YouTube
Myself

I undeniably love Lachlan but I don't want to be with him

I want to be with Ethan but he hates me

I feel like I'm letting down my fans. Because I only upload two times a week

Physically and mentally I'm a mess. For the first time in my life I feel dead inside

I'm lost

what should i do?