Sophia's pov
I'm sitting on our house porch or should i say Rick's and Carl's porch cause Dianna already gave me , mum and Daryl our house so i don't know why aren't we living there already. Anyway i'm just chilling there and listening to some music on my walkman, i still didn't get over Beth's death but i'm trying to read the chapters in my diary where we were in prison hanging out almost every day, i just want to remember those times in her honor, but it's not easy. I opened one page of my diary and started reading:
"Today Rick told me and Beth to go try to kill some walkers on the fence, he said that we should do that often cause even though our fence is strong it can break if too many walkers hit on it. We took some wooden sticks and stabbed them, we laughed and talked while doing that, Beth is so nice, she's the only one that knows how to make me smile when i'm grumpy or sad.
We were talking about Carl, she said that he's a cute boy and she asked me if i like him but i said i don't, even though i do, i can't tell her that, he looks at me like a sister and i think it would be impossible for us to be together"
Yeah right and look at us now, he's calling me sweetheart and flirting with me all the time if she saw that she would freak out.
So i continue reading:
"After a couple of minutes Carl came to the fence and he joined us killing walkers, we talked with him and i think he flirted with Beth so i think she clearly likes her, like i said i'm just a sister to him."
I was so stupid, i was even jealous at Beth, and that's what he wanted to happened he did that just to see if i like him.
Why am i thinking about him, when this is about Beth.
I can't be mad at him, cause there's no reason but i'd prefer to not think about him for a few days.
Even though that is impossible.
"Sophia?" I heard a voice and i turned around
"Yes mum?" I said looking at her walking to me
"Why are you still there, you're there since morning, go take a shower and look where Carl is, you should check this place out" she said
"Nah i'm not interested" i said
"Look i know it's hard on you but you need to get over it someday you know" she said
"I know, but this is just not that day" i said and headed to our room.
I opened my diary on the next page from where i was reading it.
"Today is very windy outside and Rick told us to stay in the prison cause they are going to gather some food, since Hershel and mum were talking about how Lori is going to take birth ,Beth and i sneak out."
Oh god, Lori, Hershel...how many people we actually lost, i'm happy that we survived.
"I love wind it makes me to forget my problems, i like that feeling when it blows in my face so we relaxed there a little and then Carl came there too, i thought he's gonna send us in the prison but he actually laughed and did what we were, i like that we are the only kids here and Beth is my best friend even though she's older than me."
Those we're the best times, we're never gonna find that peace again.
I thought and i started crying a little.
This place is very beautiful and civilized but it's never gonna be as good as prison, cause we were happiest there.
I walk to the window and open it, i lay my hands on it and look through it, i saw people walking and talking and laughing, they all look happy like nothing is happening outside of those walls, i can't ignore that fact, i can't ignore how many people we lost, i can't ignore Beth, i can't ignore Lori... i started crying again.
I wiped my tears, guess they're just our past now, but still i didn't get over Beth, i don't know when will i.
I saw Carl walking with some girl, she looks our age, i fast go downstairs and sit on a porch, i just looked at them cause they were literally few meters away from me.
"What, you're not gonna meet a new friend?" Carl shouted
"FUCK YOU!" I shouted and shut the door as i walked in.
A mew friend, a new friend? Is he like doing this because he knows i didn't get over Beth, i can't have a new female friend, my best friend is Beth and will always be.
Carl's pov
"Who is she?" Enid asked me, she's a girl i met in the forest today, actually i followed her there cause i saw her going over a wall.
"She's my...um...friend" i said
"Really... a friend?" She asked and laughed
"Yes, kinda" i said
She just looked at me.
"I guess... i need to go see what's with her, you don't mind?" I asked
"Sure" she smiled
I went in house and climbed upstairs
"I hear you Carl, don't even bother..." she said from our room
I opened the door and went in
"What's your deal?" I asked her
"It doesn't matter" she said
"Yes it does, i wanna help you, i know that you still didn't get over Beth but you need to continue your life you know" i said
"Well i'm living it, just without you" she said
"I know and that hurts me" i said
"I'm sorry, i already told you, i need some time for myself" i said
"So you're not gonna meet Enid?" I asked her
"I guess i don't need such a person" she said cold
"Why cause you think she'll replace Beth?" I asked her
"Of course not, nobody can replace Beth" she said
"I know, right, she was too amazing to die, i miss her too, don't ever think that i don't care, i'm just grieving differently" i smiled sadly to her
"Ok, i won't think it, i never did,but you know, like you said, we grief differently, so i need some space" she said
"Right" i said and left the room.
I hate this, i hate her being so cold.
"Is she ok?" Enid asked walking to me
"Yeah she is, it's just... our best friend died lately and she need some space" i said
"i was like that too" she said
"Why were you like that?" I asked
"Doesn't matter" she said
We walked to the lake.
Sophia's pov
I'm looking at Carl waking with that girl through the window, i don't know if i feel jealous, i think i just don't have a place in my head to feel jealous i already have too many feelings.
I put my headphones on and play Metallica and i walk downstairs.
"Where are you going Sophia?" Rick asked
"Oh i'm just going for a walk" i said
"Sure, Carl is..." he started
"I know.." i said and went out
I walked on the streets and saw how beautiful this place is, i used to live in the suburbs before the apocalypse, but i wasn't happy then, my dad used to beat my mum, it was really dark period for me, i guess apocalypse saved us from him.
"Hey" i heard someone behind me so i turn around, i saw one boy around Carl's height and our age, good another teenager.
"Um... hi" i said putting of my headphones
"Metallica?" He asked as he heard it cause volume was too loud.
"Yeah" i said
"Good taste, i'm Ron by the way" he said
"Sophia" i said and i shook his hand
"So are you from this new group?" He asked
"Yeah" i said
"So you're with Carl?" He asked
"Um... yeah" i said
"Wow cool,how long do you know each other?" He said
"I don't know, 5 years i guess" i said
"Cool, so you're were only teenagers right? Are you together?" He asked
"Um..excuse me i gotta go" i said and walked away
"Sorry for that, i didn't meant to..." he started
"Look, Ron, right? This is just not a good time to ask me those questions ok? Ok?" I said
"Sure" he said and i walked back to the house.
I was alone at home for couple of hours and i heard someone knocking on the door,so i went downstairs to open it.
"Hi" it was Enid
"Look, you need to go back, this was clearly a bad idea" i said and almost shut the door in her face but she held the door and said
"No... all this time i was the one who behaved like you, i didn't wanted to meet people, i didn't want to meet Carl, and now when someone actually doesn't want to meet me i'm curious" she said
"Well i'm not interested in meeting you, i don't need you, i don't want to know you better and i don't want you to know me better, am i clear to you?!" I said
"I guess so" she said
"Cool, now leave my porch, RIGHT NOW!" I said
"Ok" she said and walked away
I went back in, that was mean but i don't care, i think i might be jealous because she's hanging out with Carl and she's not my friend, i didn't get used to it, all this time it was just me, Carl and Beth, and now these Ron and Enid want to be friends with us, nah i can't do it, guess i'm just gonna stay mean.
Well like you see they're not gonna get along😝, and by the way yesterday i watched first episode of season 7, i'm not gonna spoil it but, i'm literally dead😭 - Milica
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FanfictionThis is a book where Sophia doesn't die. After she was lost in a forest running from walkers, Carl goes everyday to forest after he's been shot trying to find her and one day he finally does he saves her from the walkers and take her on a farm and t...
