"Same day, same moon
24/7 every moment repeats
My life is in between
Jobless twenty-somethings are afraid of tomorrow
It's funny, you think anything is possible when you're a kid
When you feel how hard it is to get through a day
Keep feeling like the "Control" beat, keep downloading it
Every single day is a repetition of ctrl+c, ctrl+v .."
What am I doing?
What am I doing to help my family? Friends? ... Myself?
Everything I've done until now. Me joining BEAST, being in a sub-unit with Hyuna... everything is... gone.
But what am I doing to be the best?
Nothing. I'm doing nothing.
My whole life... it's been nothing but useless. My band mates that I called my brothers, where are they now? My partner that I thought loved me for me, where is she?
I'm alone.
Abandoned...
Until...
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"Hyunseung will join UJi!" I started dancing with her.
I felt happy, free.
There was this warm feeling... she looked...
Beautiful...
...But I messed up... like normal.
"If you had to choose between Hyuna or UJi, who would you choose?"
"Hyuna."
Maybe it was pressure...
Maybe I'm just stupid.
I regret it though.
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After the show I walked up to her.
"Hi... Uji..." She looked at me... her smile. "Hyunseung sshi."
"Just, call me oppa... if you'd like..." I said.
"Hyunseung oppa..."
Until now, I thought everyday was the same... a repetition... but the way you look at me... smile... so...
Lovingly.
Why does it change me?
