Dear dairy
Today is a day i will shoot my self. Everything going worng. I made mistress pist and ye its better to go. The therapy dindt go well im so emotiol af but ye fuck it. There it fucking nothing i can do right. I make everyone pist and i hate my self i have no idea how to stay happy if everything fails. Idk if it come good between me and mistress. I wouldt loss her but wen it happents is t my own fold im to stupid to get thing right in my mind. And ye i feel me terrble. I dont come on social media and idk if mistresa talk again to me. I walk away and idk to were but im tired. I try so hard to be a good girl but in fact i mess everything. And idk i hope it dosnt go worng and i hope im strong enough to not attack my self. I have the feeling there is no place for me on this world and merg i have no idea what to do anymore. Gaming or watching anime donst help to calm me down and i cant set my mind off. Its so fuckung hatefull. And i wish i were a better person but nop. And i bad stupid girl.
I spoke with mistress. She inst mad anymore. And she is happy amd crying because the card i sent to her. I know i do stupid thing but i love her amd she me. But im go sleep
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little puppy dairy
Romancebdsm dairy and reminder of the rules. this dairy hold i because i love my mistress. but we life with a distance and we have talked about rules. and i came with a idea for the dairy. i wirte everyday. the rule page ins't complete. and my mistress wil...
