Have I Told You (PUBLISHED)

Chapter Thirty Seven

Chapter Thirty Seven

Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwalang ako lang ang hindi nakakaalam tungkol sa kasal pati na rin sa bahay. In fairness, magaling talaga siya at yung mga ka-sabwat niyang manggulat. Hanggang ngayon nga, nagugulat pa rin ako. I thought he would stay in our house all the time, but no. Lagi siyang umaalis ng bahay. Everi give him ytime he leaves, I'm worried he might not come back.

According to him, dito siya nagpupunta pag nawawala siya. Ngayong nawawala siya, saan ko na siya hahanapin?

Kung wala siya sa Effor, of course, sa best friend niya.

"Nyle, are you with Eisley? Again?" I ask over the phone.

"Uh... oo?"

"Ano bang ginagawa niyong dalawa? Bakit lagi kayong magkasama?"

"Mind your own business," sabi niya saka niya ako binabaan. Dammit!

Well, at least I know Eisley's with Nyle. He's safe with him. Don't get me wrong, I'm really happy. Actually, sobrang saya ko ngayon kaya nga nakakatakot kasi baka biglang bawiin. Baka in just one snap, mawala yung mga nagpapasaya sa akin. Parang yung nangyari sa nanny ko. Parang yung nangyari kay mommy sexy. Tragic deaths/endings are traumatizing. 

I don't want fear to swallow me, though. As much as possible, I always try to live in the present.

Me: Uminom ka na ng gamot mo?

Ang tagal bago nag-reply si Eisley sa text ko.

Him: Yes

Nope, he hasn't changed. Akala ko nga magiging expressive na siya, pero hindi rin. Ang dami kong akala. He still keeps a lot of secrets. Kahit mag-asawa na kami, ang mysterious niya pa rin. Sweeter, though. Ang saya rin na araw-araw, may bago akong nalalaman tungkol sa kanya. Interesting. Surprising. Sometimes, frustrating. 

At night, Eisley rubs my stomach and smiles at it like his world depends on it. Baka may X-RAY vision siya at nakikita niya yung bata sa loob ng tiyan ko. After that, it's my turn to rub his back until he falls asleep. He has a hard time sleeping, but he's always sleepy that's why I do everything to make him feel comfortable.

Sa umaga, sa patio kami nag-bi-breakfast. The breeze is cold there. Marami kasing puno at halaman. Since vegan si Eisley, mas mahirap mag-isip ng ulam. Buti na lang, pinahiram sa akin ni tita Berna yung recipe ni Mommy Sexy. Lahat ng paborito niya, gusto kong lutuin. We don't have to be old for me to cook for his favorite food.

After spending his morning with me, I let him do whatever he wants to do as long as he lets me know where he goes because I'm too worried. He already knows his limitations and I always remind him his do's and don't's. 

Pag dating ng hapon o gabi, mag-di-dinner kami sa labas. Eisley and I go on a day every night, and we date like teenagers. Noong nag laro nga kami sa timezone, hindi niya tinigilan yung stuffed toy vending machine hangga't wala siyang nakukuha.

"Seriously, Eisley. Stop. Spending. Your. Money! I get that those stuffed toys are cute and you want to give them to me through hard work, but every penny counts, remember? Sayang lang token mo. I'm fine. I understand."

He didn't even look at me. He was ignoring me, while trying really hard to get a stuffed toy. First time niyang mag-arcade. Grabe pa naman 'to pag na-addict. Naalala ko yung playstation ko at Pokemon Go, ang tagal bago siya huminto.

"Akala ko ba we shouldn't buy what we want, but what we need?" I'm trying not to laugh, while asking this.

Hindi ko na napigilan yung tawa ko sa sagot niya, "I need this." Still not looking at me! Nanlilisik yung mga mata niya, habang nakatingin sa stuffed toy na gusto niyang kunin. Hala!