"Tori what happened to you?"
"Tori you use to be so happy!"
"Tori stop being selfish! Just be happy!"
"You will be okay!"
What happened to me??
What fucking happened to me?
I got raped.
I got raped by someone I trusted. Who I called a friend.
And I LOST EVERYTHING
ALL OF MY FRIENDS ABANDONED ME
JUST "byee see ya latter! sure you got raped bud. you wanted it didn't you?!"
I AM FUCKING MISERABLE
I LOST MY FRIENDS
MY SCHOOL
I AM LOSING MYSELF
I CANT TELL YOU HOW MANY TIMES IVE THOUGHT "ohh it would be better to just kill myself.." OR "Maybe I should start cutting again.. I need to feel something."
BUT HOW STUPID IS THAT?
HOW STUPID IS IT THAT I WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING WHEN I FEEL EVERYTHING
I HATE MYSELF
I HATE BEING LIKE THIS
S O F U C K I N G B R O K E N
I did cross country this year and I was happy for a while but then It stopped and I realized
"Hey.. im not okay. I am still exactly how I was. nothing has changed. no progress. nada."
ya know what its been 8 fucking months since he raped me..
and I am only worse
I think about it every fucking day there is not a single thing to make me okay
no solutions
no drugs
no amount of love
there is nothing left..
so that is why I am done writing
there is no happy ending
there is no such thing as happy no matter how much you fake that pretty little smile
we are all dying inside
there
is
no
happy
ending
YOU ARE READING
Therapy | Destiel AU
FanfictionI opened up to him. He knew my darkest and deepest secrets. And he still spoke with a smile as he said, "I love you." X
