Baby Dolan (book 2)

Chapter 18

Lilly's POV
Next Day

I decided to stay home, since I didn't feel good waking up, Grayson was going to stay with me

But I begged him not to, since I just wanted to be alone, Alex woke up late so it took a her a while to leave the apartment

But once I was alone, I just laid in bed, really hating myself , I hate that I'm pregnant, I hate that this child is stuck with me as a mother

I hate that I'm not pretty, Grayson haven't even touched me, he's been distance lately

My dad was right, I'm not fit to be real mother, to care and love a child

But I mostly hate that I haven't thrown up this pizza yet, so that's I did

I get up and walked into the bathroom, and put up the toilet seat, I get on my knees and take my hair put of my face, I take deep breath before putting two fingers down my throat

I gagged the first two times, but the third time, I actually threw up

After I was done, I flushed the toilet and wiped my mouth with a wet rag, I brushed my teeth

I look at myself in the mirror, and I looked horrible, I had bags underneath my eyes, I mostly looked tired

I open the cabinet, just so I don't have to look myself, when I see a bunch of pills

But one pink bottle stood out to me, I picked it up and look at it

Beauty Diet Pills
Take One A Day!
It Works Like Magic!

I opened the bottle and there was these little pink pills in it

I put one in my hand, and closed it and shutting the cabinet, I put in my mouth, and got some water in my mouth, swallowing the pill, I put the bottle back

I look at myself in the mirror again, and tried to smile, it wasn't a true smile but it a fake smile

I turned off the bathroom light and walked back into my room, and laid down

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(Next Day)

I was feeling much better now, today is the winter formal and I'm so excited

My dress comes in today, so Alex took work off today, so she can make sure it comes in

Because the winter formal is today, we have a half a day of school, so right now I'm walking with Emily to Mr.Fisherman's class while she's talking about her dress

We walk in and Ethan and Grayson, already in there, we sit next to them

They're all talking, but I'm in my own little world, Grayson nudges me, I look up

"You alright?" He asked

"Yeah, I'm just excited" I smiled as he puts his arm over my shoulder

He smiled back

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(After School)

Jessica dropped off, Ethan and Emily to Ethan's place so they can get ready, then Cameron's going to pick us all up when we're all ready

Grayson's in our room getting ready, while I'm in Jessica and Alex's room

My dress haven't came yet, but it still have time until the dance starts.

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Jessica's POV

I was done first so I walked into the living waiting everyone else, but Lilly went into the bathroom