Not So Ordinary

Chapter 16: Finding The Right Way

Ed's POV

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How could this happen? I mean, I know how it happens... and how it happened but...

I don't want to be a father.

I never did, I don't think I ever will.

I'm just now considering asking Taylor to marry me, but I don't want kids.

Even if we are giving it up for adoption, the baby will grow up one day, the parents will tell it the truth, and they'll come looking for us, wanting to bond with us.

I'm just so stressed about this, and on top of that we have to find adoptive parents.

It's the next morning and Taylor tells me she scheduled an appointment with a lady who will help us find families and interview them.

"Be ready by noon." She says.

"That's an hour from now, we should leave in 30 minutes." I inform her.

"Okay, well be ready by then." Taylor's been tense about the whole thing, I'm not going to get mad at her, even if I do get a little pissed at her.

Right now she's taking things hard on herself when she really shouldn't, these things happen, you know?

I get ready, and we head out to the office.

We met with a nice lady who said she could have three families ready by tomorrow.

We agreed, and left.

"Hey, I gotta make a stop on the way home." I say.

"Okay, I'll wait in the car." She says.

I park the car a block away from the actual place I was going to.

I was going to the jewelry store, to buy Taylor a ring.

I walk in browse around a bit, and found the perfect one.

It was simple, yet detailed, it looked vintage, just like Taylor's taste. I buy it and carry the box in my pocket.

I quickly make a run into the candle shop next door and pick one out for Taylor, so I wouldn't come back empty handed. Plus, she loves candles.

"For you." I say handing her the bag.

She pulls out the candle, and smells it, "Mm, yummy. Thank you babe." She says.

I'm not sure when I'll propose to Taylor, it'll happen when it happens.

We get inside the apartment and I watch as Taylor goes in the bedroom and sits down.

She doesn't do anything, but she stares out the window in the bedroom.

I walk up behind her.

Should I do it now?

Or should I wait?

I sit down next to her.

I lay my hand next to hers.

Her hand crawls into mine, and our fingers intertwine.

She lays her head on my shoulder, and I kiss the top of your head.

"I love you." She says.

"I love you more."

She pulls her head up to kiss me.

"It's a beautiful sunset, isn't it?" She questions.

"Yeah, but not nearly as beautiful as you, not even close." I answer.

"Ed, I really love you so much."

"Prove it, because I still think I love you more."

"I love you so much, that'd I'd marry you if you asked me."

Should I do it now? I think I should.

I pull the box out of my pocket and slide off the bed and down on one knee.

I open the box, "Will you then?" I ask her.

She's speechless, almost doubtful.

"Taylor, look. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone. Even when we fight, it makes me love you more for some reason. I never thought I'd even want to get married, I wasn't the marrying type. I am now, because you've changed my point of view on love. You've made me believe it can still be angry, hurtful, painful, heartbreaking, passionate, wonderful, creative... All while being madly, deeply in love with you. I want you to myself, I never want to lose you. That would be the most stupid thing I've done in my life, and I've done a lot of stupid things. So Taylor, I ask you. Will you marry me? Because I'm so in love with you."

She tears up and cries.

"Ed, I don't know what to say." She says all choked up.

"You don't have to answer right away." I add in.

She shakes her head and smiles, then she kisses me.

"I'd never make you wait for an answer for something important, for our future, like this."

I gave her another kiss, then slide the ring on her slim finger.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you more Ed, and I just proved it."