I Wasn't Enough

Performance

Tylerina's POV

Nagising ako dahil sa ingay ng orasan ko at ng kuya ko, WTF? ang aga aga panaman para sa class ah?

"Kung gigising ka na ngayon at mag ayos, Well. Oo nga, maaga ka para sa second subject mo." what? So mind reader na sya ngayon?

"Sinabi mo nang malakas yun sis." really?

"Get out of here, you freak." 

"Not until you get ready for school."

"Pero sabi mo it'll be early for my second subject kapag mag ayos na ako ngayon. " I said in sarcastic voice

"So you believed me? Did you know that we have our performance for our first time in  school? " What? Ang dami namang alam ng principal ng school na yon.

"Why on earth do we need to do some stupid performance?" I asked

"Ask monkeys." He answered, Really?

"That's why I asked you, stupid." I said rolling my eyes

"Aba!"

"Alis na dito sabi mag aayos nako." sabi ko, sinunod naman nya. Namiss ko yung gung-gong na yon ah. Tagal nya kasing nasa New York eh, pano ba kasi. Nung nandito sya hindi sya nag titino sa pag aaral. Laging bagsak kaya sinundo sya ni papa dito at dinala sa NY para doon mag aral, doon kasi mababantayan sya ni papa. Takot kasi kami kay papa. Well, hindi naman talaga nakakatakot si papa. Cool lang sya, madalang sya magalit at pag nagalit sya wala kang magagawa kundi tumahimik. Nagagalit sa mostly kapag hindi naman pinag bubuti pag aaral namin. Hindi naman yung as in galit like masasampal ka. Pagsasabihan ka lang, pero kasi yung boses nya kapag pinagsasabihan kami ay parang naka lunok ng mic sa sobrang lakas kaya nakakatakot.

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SCHOOL

Naka upo kami ngayon ng kuya ko sa backstage nag hihintay sa signal ng emcee. at ayun na nga, hindi na napatagal ang pag hihintay namin dahil tinawag na kami.

" Okey. So now, we are going to watch the performance of the twin, the owner of the school's children, kilala nyo naman siguro sila diba? But this time, isa isa silang mag perform, syempre. Hindi pwedeng sabay, Are you ready to see them? Okey let us welcome first. Ms. Tylerina, the daughter of the school's ownee" sabi ng emcee kaya lumabas nako ng backstage
 
Kinakabahan ako -_____-

" Hi! uhmm. It's nice to see you, and thank you sa pag welcome samin ni kuya " I said

" Ms. Tylerina. sa pag kaka alam ko kakanta ka? maari mo bang simulan na?" emcee said.

"Yah, sure." sabi ko at inayos na ang gagamitin sa pag kanta ko

~I'm so glad, you made time to see me.
how's life? tell me how's your family, i haven't seen them in awhile, you've been good, busier than ever, small talk, work in the weather, your guard is up and I know why-y-y.
because the last time you saw me is still
burned in the back of your mind.
you gave me roses and I left them there to die

so this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying "I'm sorry for that night"  And I go back to december all the time .
it turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December , turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to december all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smlie,
so good to me, so righ
and now you held me in your arms
last September night
The first time you ever saw me cry.

maybe this is wishful thinking,
probably mindless dreaming,
but if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on youe door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying
"I'm sorry for that night"
and I go back to December..

it turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you, wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
all the time~

Pagkatapos kong kumanta nag pasalamat ako at bumaba na ng stage.
kakapagod at nakaka nerbyos, pero ayos lang naman.

kuya ko na ang mag perperform. sasayaw nga pala sya ngayon..

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Pag katapos ng opening program kanina ay hinanap ko agad ang room ko.
ang daming nag welcome sakin, mabait naman pala mga tao dito. sana laging ganito.

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Song: Back to December by Taylor Swift ;-)