Diary Of Brilliant Melanin Queen

loving and being in love

What is I told you you weren't enough
What if I said I wanted more
I get the feeling you know this but...
You can't help but hold on tight

At first I thought I loved you like that but as time went on I noticed new things about us
What we have is based on lust rather than love
You say you want forever when I can only give you a few glimpses of me
Our love flourished but not well enough...
It came to fast and hard that when it wore off on me I didn't know how to let you go easy
Mostly because you're still falling and I can't help stay for the perks you come with
I do of course love you but I'm just not in love with you

I hate lying to you like this
Saying that I love you when I can't love all of you
Saying I need you when I know I could have more elsewhere
Saying all this shit only to be leading you on
And now that I see this I can't help but feel say bad as you put yourself out to be

I feel dirty
Cold
Heartless
Similar to snow, cold but beautiful

Beautiful because you make me
All those smiles and laughs shared between us...
Now that's true

I'm sorry to say this but it's not you and I really mean that...
You're perfect, the best I could ask for really
But you're not enough

And I really meant it when I said I love you
Which if why I won't tell you all of this.
I won't break you heart but I'll let you break mine...

I'll love you hard until I can't no more
I'll let your heart beat forever and let my pulse beat fainter till it doesn't
Because you deserve better and I don't wanna be the girl you fell for and made you not trust love anymore

I'll love you till you can't love me anymore