Forever And Always

Chapter 1: first time

His apartment was always quiet, only the sound of a cheesy 80's horror movie was there to comfort young Matthew Busek. Yawning, he popped Friday the 13th in the DVD player and went to make another bowl of cheap buttered popcorn. Knocking at the door got Matt out of his dead gaze at the clock, he tiredly walked over to the door and unlocked the deadbolt to reveal the baby-faced male.

"Hey Matty!, hows your life doing?" Jordon grinned as he trudged into the living room with a bag of what seemed to be blue ribbon. The curly haired drummer shrugs in response and grabbed the now slightly burnt popcorn. Jordon was already seated on the couch, legs spread out and drinking the bitter liquid. Matt had to admit, he thought that sight was very sexy. Sitting down he leaned on the arm of the worn down couch, his eyes drifted all over the male next to him, but landed on the gold band raped around the male's finger. Randi was lucky, she had had the perfect husband to love and care for her.

"HOW IS THAT EVEN PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE?! THAT'S BULLSHIT!" Jordon yelled out, spilling some of the cooked kernels onto the floor. "Shit!" The sight of him getting worried over the popcorn spilling out was funny, actually it made Matt laugh.

"Man, hey look! Floorcorn!" The drummer chuckled as Jordon said something about putting corn into the bucket. Matt bent down and started helping him pick up the stray food, but as they were picking it all up their hands touched slightly, causing the curly aired man to blush and shoot up straight. He really liked Jordon, in everyday he was perfect, his hair, eyes, everything. He was just perfect, and what was Matthew to him?

Nothing, just a curly haired faggot.

"Okay.......one sec, need to use the bathroom," He got up to leave, as his his figure left into the hall, Matt started to cry.

Jordon was looking through the hall, he accidentally took a left and opened up Matt's room. It was dusty and looked bleak, almost as if no one had set foot in there before him. He took a few steps in and saw the dirty clothes on the floor and it saddened him to see this, he looked around more and gasped at the drummer's bedside table. There were about 3 empty sleeping pill bottles and bloody razor blades to go with it. He felt a few tears escape his eyes, how long had his Matty been hurting like this? He backed up slightly and felt his world shatter. Matthew was his world, yeah he loved Randi but Matt made his heart flutter with passion and fury. Matt was like a fire that burned forever, but it seems that his fire was close to embers now.

Matthew noticed that Jordon had been gone for a while, he wiped away his tears and got up to see where that sceney weenie was at. He looked through the hallway and noticed his bedroom door was cracked open a bit and went over to shut it, while he was going over to shut it he noticed a shadow in there and pushed the door open more. He was in shock, Jordon knows.....he thought to himself as he saw Jordon standing by his bed, holding his med bottles with shaky hands.

"J-Jordon?!" Matt murmured out in a quivering voice. Jordon instantly turned around and saw a crying Matthew scared out of his mind. A million thoughts were going through his head at that moment, what would Matt say, will he hate him? He had no clue.

"M-Matt?" Jordon was super stressed out with what he just found out about. Matt was in tears, his wanna-be lover found out about his depression, he subconsciously tugged at the sleeve of his sweater to hide his cuts and scars. The baby faced male stepped forward to hug Matt, it seemed that the curly haired male wasn't able to let go, like Jordon was his life raft.

"Jordon.....I-I'm s-s-so sorry you h-had to see that," Matt was crying hard, he knew this would've happened at anytime, he hugged closer knowing this is as close they'll ever get again. Jordon looked down at Matt and a tear escaped him, he felt terrible about this whole thing, how could he not see it all this time. Matt looked so innocent to the rapper, he couldn't help himself as he leaned down and pecked the drummer's soft lips. The taste was like sugar and salt, he lapped it all up like a starving dog would food. Matt was surprised at the action but never the less kissed back eagerly as he pulled himself closer to Jordon. It felt like eternity to Matt, the way their lips caressed and moved was like heaven. Matthew broke the kiss, he never felt so loved in his life. He lead Jordon towards the bed so they could just talk and work things out. What was a simple conversation turned into a heated night, once they finished they layed in bed cuddling.

"I'm sorry that I didn't know Matt, I've been really busy with Randi," Matt's smile dropped, he thought Jordon actually cared, but of course he has a wife to go home to.

"I'll be right back," Matt got up and walked steadily towards the bathroom. He looked through the dozens of pill bottles to find the one kind he bought just in case. Holding up the bottle of Demerol, all he needed was to take four and could die peacefully in his sleep. Walking out he saw Jordon already half asleep, he crawled in next to the sleepy rapper and cuddled up next to him.

"I love you Matt," Jordon spoke nuzzling into Matt's back.

"I love you too Jordon..........forever and always," and with that, he fell asleep, and never woke up.