Money, Pain, And Redemption

Chapter 8

  When I got home my foster mom and Trey were gone so me and G decided to go into my room we watched TV and chilled. "Can I ask you a question babygirl," G said curiously he was looking into my eyes like he was looking for something. "Yeah I guess wassup," I said "how come you never told me the reason you be hurting so much I understand it's personal but I care about you and I know something must have happened for you to be a foster child," he said I could tell he was trying not to say the wrong thing and find the right words. "Well when my dad left she started dating a lot and my dad got shot by her boyfriend and she covered for him so I got in a big argument with him every since then he talked to me any kind of way one night my mom was at work he came in my room raped me she came in but did nothing I told her help me she just stood there I guess she was scared and when he finally got off me I got all my clothes and ran away I couldn't stay there any longer I was hurt, lost, shattered, destroyed and weak," I began to cry in G arms "I was suicidal I tried to kill myself so many times because people kept hurting me but I realize I was all I had nobody really cared I had a little brother but they killed him in one of the foster homes I didn't know what to do anymore but to get high my best friend sat me down and talked to me about what I was doing I was slowly starting to change but it's still a process I just do what I can it hurts." I began to think about everything that was really hurting me everything that really made me so paranoid. I became so cold hearted because I was so scared of the cold world I was living in. "Everything okay Unique I'll always love you babygirl."

  G was making me laugh I even felt comfortable with him everything I was feeling just made me fall for him more but I still didn't want it to be just a lie. My foster mom and Trey came home so we went into the living room and sat down. Trey and G were talking so I went into the kitchen to see if my foster mom needed help "hey Unique I been wanting to talk to you but help me put the groceries up so I can get dinner started. We put everything up so I sat at the "Unique be careful in these streets I know you never had a mother figure to tell you what I'm telling you but these streets don't care about you people will walk all over you without caring especially with somebody like G I know how he is even it seem like since he been with you he trying to settle down," my foster mom said. "I already played the game before so I know how it is I been out here on my own I started doing everything at a young age I know I was too young I learned from all my mistakes I learned that everybody ain't real like they say. I been betrayed so much that I don't feel no more I'm just- my feelings are numb I don't have any trust left in me for no one and sad to say not even you because I don't know how." Everything I was saying was true I couldn't trust anyone. I helped my foster mom with the dinner even though she had me doing most of the work but I didn't mind she looked tired like she hasn't slept in days "if you're tired you can take a nap and I'll wake you when dinner's ready mom you look like you need some sleep," I said worried about her. The sound of me calling her mom made me smile she also forced a smile as she went to take a nap. While the food cooked I sat in the living room in my favorite place to sit G and Trey stopped their conversation and looked at me "I knew she was tired but acted like she wasn't it took you to get her to finally get some rest," Trey said. "Yeah I could see the tiredness in her eyes so I just told her to go sleep cause she had me doing most of the work anyways," I said curiously. Trey never talked to me much so I wondering why he wasn't shy and he seemed cool. I finished cooking the food and fixed everyone a plate then I went to wake my foster mom she didn't look as bad as she did before everybody grabbed their food and we all sat at the table "thank you for letting me rest Unique you are really a wonderful child," my foster mom said. "Damn babygirl I got a good one she can cook, beautiful, caring, and good at other things," G said winking his eye I knew he was talking about in bed but I was hoping everybody else didn't notice.everything got quite so I decided to break the silence but when I was about to open my mouth my foster mom spoke "Unique and G can I ask you two a question and I want ya'll to be honest with me," "have you been having sex with my daughter, G?" We both looked up and made eye contact and once again everything was quite "yeah mom but it's okay we are careful and I wanted him to do it please don't be mad," G made eye contact with me again but this time it looked as if anger was in his eyes I looked away "okay but be careful baby don't take it offensive G I know you care but she's my daughter so I have to be concerned about her but don't ever hurt her," she spoke again. I looked at G who stood up and took his plate to the sink Trey went into the living room "babygirl when you get done let me so we can go somewhere before it gets too late you know you got school tomorrow," G said but he didn't sound like his normal self I said okay and looked at my foster mom who was still there eating we got done eating at the same time "baby I know you don't have a real mother to tell you these things but just remember I told you and that I try to be your mom the best way that's why I decided to adopt you," my foster mom said. I hugged her and when to the living room and sat beside G "I'm ready to go," I said he got up and walked me to the car then open the door for me to get in the drive was quite so I decided to say something "G are you mad because I told her I didn't know you would get mad I wouldn't have said anything please don't be mad," I said. He stopped the car at his house and parked in the garage "you saw me give you a look not to tell her but you said something anyways come on let's go inside or you want to stay in the car either way it go we still gone get you straight we can talk in the house," he said I could hear the anger in his voice I could feel my heart beat he got out the car opened my to let me out and we went inside even though he was mad he was still nice and opened the door for me so I knew he would get over it. His veins was popping through his skin anger was in his eyes and voice he grabbed my arm tight enough to make it numb he picked me up and carried me to his bed and throwed me down I didn't know if I should run or stay he began to take my clothes off and his he climbed on top of me and said "since you want to say some without my permission I'm going to give you some to talk about he was rough and it hurt I screamed and cried but I couldn't get away because he had me pinned down he went deeper and deeper I wingled to get away but I couldn't he finally got up I couldn't move I just layed there trembling "go get in the shower you got clothes in the second draw hurry up so you can go home," G said. When I got out the shower I looked for clothes and put them on I went over to G he held my face in his hand and stared in my eyes I knew he could see the pain inside that's the place to find if I was feeling hurt, excited, happy, sad everyone knew to look in my eyes when they wanted to know what I was feeling. "I'm sorry babygirl I can see the pain in your eyes I wasn't trying to hurt I keep forgetting your not like the girls I been with in the past you different you even made me a different person I'm going to spoil you babygirl I promise to never hurt you again I know you don't believe it because you used people telling you lies but believe me," G said he sounded so serious but I wasn't going to be a victim of lies after lies I didn't care anymore I was done. He took me home I went straight to my room not looking at anyone I didn't want anyone to talk to me I just wanted to go to sleep I got in my sleeping clothes and layed in bed flicking through the TV channels I stopped and watched Martin episodes Martin and Gina had problems but they always show each other how much they loved each other and they were afraid to lose each other. I got a text from G 

G: u up babygirl I want to talk to u 

I ignored his text and found myself to sleep I woke up early because I couldn't sleep I woke up to see text and 6 missed calls from G but I didn't want to talk to him after what happened yesterday I decided to go to Heaven house and walk to school with her I turned my phone off I didn't talk to G the whole week Saturday I woke and turned looked at my phone I didn't have any text or missed calls I went into the living room and G was sitting there waiting on Trey but Trey was in the shower and my foster mom was sleep my heart dropped as I sat in my favorite place I could feel him staring so I finally decided to look up. He walked to me and said "Hey babygirl you I'm sorry I didn't want to hurt you I really do love you I got something for you baby," he gave me a diamond necklace with my name it was beautiful "it brings out your eyes let help you put on so you can see how two beautiful objects go well together." He put it on and I looked in the mirror it was true it was beautiful and it made me look even more beautiful because of the shine it brought to my eyes I knew just the right thing to wear with it he wrapped his arms around me hugging me from the back he kissed me on the neck where my spot was we started kissing when Trey walked in "I see you two back on good terms don't fuck up again G be lucky she took you back cause I know Unique don't depend on nobody." I smirked but what he was saying was kind of true I never depended on people even when I needed something. I got in the shower and put on some clothes to go my best friend, Heaven, we planned to go baby shopping over spring break I saved up money so we could I wanted her to be prepared for when the baby came. When we was younger we always talked about what we would name our children Heaven said she would name her daughter Unique after me and her son name would be Kane I said I would name my son Valdus  and my daughter Karishma. We wanted our children names to mean something so they would be proud of them. Everything we always dreamed about seemed like it would never happen but we still had each other. I always dreamed to be a rapper but no one believes in me but Heaven and I always believed in her goals.