My Best friend.. My lover ://Lucas Coly

Chappie .3 Insecurities😭

December 13 2012

"I act like Sh!t don't Phase me. Inside it drives me crazy.My insecurities could eat me alive".

~Eminem
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{Ajanae POV}

"YOUR UGLY"!
"YOUR FAT"!

"YOUR A PIG!
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"NO ONE LOVES YOU".

"YOUR STUPID"

"KILL YOURSELF".
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I ran out the school as fast as I can. I ran and ran and ran I unlocked my house door. I ran to my room and threw my bookbag down.. I flopped on my bed crying. I couldn't hold it.. Its eating me alive. I broke all my vases,my mirror. Everything.. I turned off the lights. I just layed there.. Sobbing like a pig..
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Lucas Pov
F**k WHERE SHE WENT. Ima kill these girls I swear to mother f****king God.. I tackled them. I don't care if beating their a** is going to ruining my reputation this my best friend... I might......You know what never mind ...... I grabbed the girls hair and slammed her into the wall. Jaylen tried to take me off but I was fighting it.. They pulled me back and they called me something and I ran back and threw a metal spoon at them... Dont ask where I got it from..
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(Ajanae PoV)
×5Hours later×
I sat on my bed. I brought my knees to my head and stayed like that. My phone started ringing.. I ignored it. I got a lot of texts but I turned my phone off and stuffed it in my drawer... I breathe heavily knowing what. I was going to do. I might regret it but I need it in my most time of need. I Walked to my closet and grabbed My razor. I stared at my trembling arm and tried to calm it but of course I can't calm it I'm about to give it scars. I kept replaying those words in my head and I just sliced. Slice and think slice and think.... Slice and think.........
The blood running through my skin.. The pain. Feels good yet painful.. ,maybe that's how beauty feels to suffer..
I kept slicing. Both my arm look ugly. I have many many many cuts. I let the blood flow as I curled up in my covers letting my head sink In the pillows as it filled up with tears....

(Her arm in media)