learning to hate you as
a self defense mechanism
She messaged me today, I didnt fall apart like I would have 2 weeks ago. I was just happy to know I was worth messaging. I had the best feeling I've had for a while. Then she went on "I missed texting you! I missed having you as a friend !". Back to where we started, friends. But friend wasn't enough, when would it ever be enough. I attempted to be friendly but sometimes I would get out of hand. These times were when she needed a friend to talk about the cute girl in her dance class, or the shy girl in the hallway. I wasn't ready for that, I wasn't ready for her to move on. I hoped she was baiting me but she had no intention. That was when I started being what I needed to be, I started hating her. It was the only way I knew how to get over her. Hoping that by hating her she'd be less of the girl I needed. So I held on to that feeling, I held on to what I felt when she called it over, when she no longer wanted me.
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mess
RandomI am Skylar, I am messy. I can't get control my feelings, but I can sure rant about them. Apparently Lil Skylar has a Lil mess of a heart and wants to share it with whoever cares. I'm not sure what this is honesty, but like thats okay. enjoy I guess
