did you leave because of me?
you left the day after we had a huge argument. i felt so guilty. i blamed myself for it. i still do. and i'm so sorry if that was the reason why. i wish i can take back everything i said. i never meant any of it. i was so stupid to pick a fight with you. why did i? i'm so selfish. why couldn't i just shut my mouth? i just wish i could've been there for you instead of picking fights with you. that's what best friends are supposed to do. you should've deserved better. why did you stick with me for so long? i'm such a pain in the ass to be with.
i wanted to make things up the next day, but i got the news that you were gone and i was so devastated. i couldn't forgive myself. i want you to come back so badly. so we can make things up. but even if you did, i don't expect you to forgive me. and i wouldn't blame you. i wouldn't forgive myself either.
maybe there is a chance that you can come back. or am i just crazy?
