Till Life Do Us Part (A Zauren Love Story)

Part Fourteen: Hidden Secrets..

Lauren's POV:

Louis came five minutes ago and asked me if I want to watch a movie with them, I agreed to the idea, I didn't watch a movie for a long time, when I was young I used to watch Disney's movies with Mariah and Jack but when Mariah died.. well, everything changed, even how I spend my free time, watching movies was not allowed anymore, watching tv in general was not allowed..

I wore my jacket and applied some make up, just a little to cover the scars, I looked at my reflection in the mirror, my clothes are so old fashioned, my long straight black hair covering my shoulders and a part of my face, black circles under my eyes that even make up couldn't hide. I wish I could do something about my look, the way I dress, have a new haircut, maybe dyeing my hair, doing my eyebrows! if I want to start a new life I have to get a new look! but not now, when I get money I'll do all of this, even if my brother is famous and rich, that doesn't mean that I can take money from him, I have to earn my own..

I walked to the living room and saw the boys sitting in their places waiting for me, Harry and Zayn were sitting in one of the couches, louis and liam sitting on another, while Niall laid on the floor holding his popcorn bowl, "Lauren, come and sit over here.." Harry said making a gap between him and Zayn to let me sit in it, I walked over to them and sat where he pointed, one of my shoulders touching Harry, while the other touching Zayn.

"here, this is for the three of you.." Louis handed me a popcorn bowl, I placed it on my lap so everyone can eat from it, Niall got up and started the movie.

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I've never watched this movie before and it was so funny, I laughed my lungs out. but in every time I laughed or smiled I found Zayn looking at me and smiling, he's eyes are sparkling and his smile is shining in the dark room, his smile wasn't that kind of fake or quick smiles, it was the most beautiful smile I've ever seen, the smile that takes your breath away, the smile that its effect can reflect to anyone and make him smile too. when I look at him and find him looking at me I blush like an idiot, but I'm always the one who's breaking the gaze, I can't stare at him for so long, when he looks at me with those hazel eyes I feel that weird feeling again, the feeling that makes my heart beats fast in my chest, the feeling that makes me feel weak and exposed, the feeling that makes me think that he knows all my secrets, all my pain, all my fears.. the feeling that he can see through me, that he knows how much I suffered and how deep my wounds are..

I don't know if Zayn even watched the movie, his gaze was on me all the time, his looks wasn't just looks, they were something more, more intense than usual looks, more concentrate, like he's trying to read my past from my face expressions, his thoughtful and deep eyes scanning me, and making me feel weaker..

"did you enjoy the movie?" Liam asked me after the movie was finished

"A lot, it was hilarious, I've never laughed like this in my life!" I said still laughing from the movie.

"wow! we have to do this more often then, there's lots of good movies that we can watch!" Niall said as he finished his pop corn, they were so kind. 

"sure! that would be awesome" I exclaimed

"I'm glad you liked it.." Harry smiled at me and I smiled back, I looked at him longer than I should, I knew he was uncomfortable with my looks because he shifted in his place then went to the kitchen,  I don't know why I keep staring at him, but every time I do this I feel the anger builds inside me, I know that it's not his fault, he didn't do anything wrong to me, actually he opened his home for me and gave me his room but it still hurts knowing that my mother choosed him over me..

I heard my phone ringing so I hurried to my room, I looked at the caller ID and it was Camila,god how much I missed her! 

"Milaaaaaaa" I screamed in excitement to the phone, god I miss this girl so much..

"Loooolo!" she screamed as loud as me "hey girl what's going on? why didn't you call me? you forgot me that easily?" Camila faked a sad tone

"shut up!" I giggled to the phone, " of course I didn't! but every time I wanted to call you I remember that you're at work, the time here sucks.. besides, it wasn't like what I expected it to be, you won't believe who's my brother, I'm still shocked from what happened, you have no clue.." I said in one breath

"shocked of what? what happened?" Camila's voice went worried

"you won't believe what I'm gonna tell you right now, but please don't freak out, don't ask many questions, I'll tell you everything.." I said and started telling her what happened since I first knocked on the door of one direction's house until this moment

"my deer lord!" Camila couldn't say more, we didn't say anything for seconds until Camila broke the silence and started talking again

"did you tell them about your father and what he did to you?" 

Harry's POV:

Lauren's looks and stares started to make me feel afraid, she looks at me in a weird way, her eyes are full of hate and anger, but why? why she hates me? I didn't do anything to her! I want to know what she's thinking about and why she's acting like this, but when I try to talk to her I find her looking at me with the same way again, and I can't do anything but to feel afraid.. yes, I feel afraid, the way she's looking at me and how she acts make me ask myself, what if she didn't come here to meet me? what if she wants more? what if she did something wrong and came here to get clean, what if she's trying to destroy my career that I've worked so hard to have it?

all those thought made me feel tired so I decided to get some sleep, I headed to Zayn's room which was mine too now, I passed next to Lauren's room, the door was open and she was talking on the phone, I was about to open my door when I heard Lauren saying something that cough my attention, I took few steps back and stood their spying on my sister as she spoke on the phone..

"No, I didn't tell Harry, I didn't tell anybody here.." Lauren tried to spoke in low voice

"No I won't tell them Camila, I can't tell them..I don't want them to know my terrible past..." 

"No camz, please.. I ran away from my past, and I'm not planing on bringing it back ever again, I promised myself that I'll leave the past behind me and to never look backwards.."

and with that I walked to my room and closed the door behind me, that's all what I needed to hear to be sure of my suspicions, I knew it, I knew that she's hiding something, and I know now that it's a terrible thing, she won't tell me, she won't tell anyone, but I have to know what she's hiding, I have to know..