Wandering Thoughts

Run

Sometimes I get an urge

That tells me to run.

Sometimes I listen

But I hate myself when I'm done.

I feel the rush of adrenaline

Calling to me.

Run away quickly

You need to leave.

I try not to listen

But it gets harder to fight.

It takes all my strength

Takes all my might.

I'm lost and afraid

As I feel my heart race.

Frightened and panicked

I feel out of place.

I thought I was strong

Thought I was free.

But this need to take flight.

Takes over me.

It isn't something

That most understand.

It's like gasping for air

Drowning on dry land.

I don't want pity

I don't want sympathy.

I want to let go

I want to be free.

Everyone's fine

While I feel the weight.

The world on my shoulders

I'm smothered by hate.

What can I do

Trapped in my head?

I can't seem to live

So I'm surviving instead.