Wandering Thoughts

Not Again

It's starting again.

I hate it.

I hate that I can't stop it.

I want it to stop.

I'm sick of waking up

Feeling like I never did.

I hate hearing those words

The ones you always said.

I don't know

What I'm supposed to do

I don't know how

To be enough for you

"Just try"

That's great advice

Except I'm trying my best

Still, no dice.

What do you do

When you're left all alone?

Who do you call?

Or do you turn off your phone?

I've made some promises

That I intend to keep

But don't mistake me

I still want to leap.

It burned 

So I cooled it

Now it stings

But it was worth it.

My only regret

In this whole ugly mess

Is the pain that I caused you

When I confessed.

You blame yourself

It's hard to see why

This is on me

There's no need to lie.